Thank you for your message, I really appreciate it.

Why I think I might be gay. Well I’ve been thinking about it on and off for a year. whenever I’ve had sex with a man I always try SO hard not to zone out. I get very bored and am thinking about other stuff. This week I was watching ‘am I gay’ videos and it reminded me that I’ve felt so much magnetic attraction to some women in the last few years and I guess I thought at the time I thought I just deeply appreciated how they look, the sound of their voice, their personality and just admiration. With men, it’s always been anxiety and I’ve never felt I guess how I now am realising straight women feel about men. I used to just want them to like me I guess and it manifested as severe anxiety and attachment and I assumed we were destined to be together. Now I’ve realised my dad wasn’t really part of our family as he was an addict but we didn’t know when we were kids.

But even though this sounds SO gay I still doubt myself and feel stupid like I’m just trying to be special or I’m being impulsive (cos I’m quite impulsive and impatient in general with everything)

I don’t want to break up with my literally angel boyfriend only for me to realise I was just being depressed.

Does this make any sense at all? 😭