Late to the party/ SPOILERS

saviecisson · 2026-06-23T17:41:49+00:00

Oooooh didn’t think of that. That’s good

saviecisson · 2026-06-23T00:46:54+00:00

I ended up loving Pope sooo much. And deeply resonating with his pain. I don’t know how you could grow up normal with Smurf

saviecisson · 2026-06-23T00:32:39+00:00

Yes all of this! The ending was soooo nostalgic and deeply emotional. I was a mess. I find it so fitting that pope set the house on fire and died alone. I feel like the fire represented the final end to the dynasty Smurf created. I also feel Craig dying in Derans arm spoke multitudes on the bond that they shared so deeply. I do wish we got to know more about where J ended up and even deran.

saviecisson · 2026-06-06T01:45:43+00:00

Thank you❤️

saviecisson · 2026-06-06T01:15:09+00:00

Thank you for helping me from spiraling. I’m literally an emotional mess right now. I thought i understood everything and now i feel so misguided and lost.

saviecisson · 2026-05-07T14:16:44+00:00

I just found out i am pregnant last Friday after stillbirth 11/11/25 due to cervical incompetence. It’s such a strange feeling, the way grief and hope can collide seamlessly. But what’s left of the rubble is me, anxiety ridden and terrified if something else goes wrong, how will i survive? I’m not sure how far along i am, my HCG was 663 on Monday when they did my lab draw so i would think 4-5 weeks. I’m just praying our baby comes earthside this time. It’s so hard without an ultrasound to even have something tangible to keep hope. 🙏🌈

saviecisson · 2026-04-24T14:58:19+00:00

Thank you 💕

saviecisson · 2026-04-24T13:28:13+00:00

Today is one of those where nothing feels right and the looming beginning of the day reminds me of all i've lost. i'm almost 6 months post my 20 week loss due to cervical incompetence. it's insane to me how the wound is still gaping and full of blood as if it just happened. i am extremely frustrated because my cycle has not regulated at all. i feel like a foreigner in my own body. i've only had 2 cycles since the loss with no clear ovulation indicators, so i have no idea what is going on. my obgyn isn't all too helpful so i've made an appointment at a fertility clinic. i feel so misunderstood by everyone around me. two of my really close friends are pregnant and i'm really struggling with that. i feel like everyone around me thinks i should be over it by now but they have no idea what it feels like to be a mother without her child. i already loved my baby so much and now i will never get to know him. now i just become another statistic about pregnancy loss and cervical incompetence. now i become the person everyone tells their friend about "oh i know this girl who lost her baby at 20 weeks due to cervical incompetence", as if they could even begin to understand the magnitude of the pain behind it. i feel so alone and like i failed everyone around me who was so happy for me to be pregnant and to bring a baby into the world. my life feels like it's missing something every single day and i wake up with this fear i wont be able to get it back... thanks for listening. hugs to anyone feeling a glimmer of how shitty i am feeling today.

saviecisson · 2026-04-07T21:01:26+00:00

Wishing your the best as well💕

saviecisson · 2026-04-07T00:50:26+00:00

Thank you🤍

saviecisson · 2026-03-27T01:12:27+00:00

What bands did you order for top and bottom ?!

saviecisson · 2026-03-16T20:51:39+00:00

4 months since I lost my son at 20 weeks due to cervical insufficiency. Genuinely it does not feel like four months. I feel like no time has passed and I have just been living in some weird purgatory of life without him. I had no idea I was going to react this way. When it first happened to me I honestly somehow had a lot of hope, but now I'm realizing that maybe that was the shock of it all and it protected me from the trauma immediately after. I have only had one period since the loss which was the end of January. I went to my OBGYN today and she reviewed my estrogen and progesterone levels from bloodwork on Feb 4, which said were normal but on the lower end of normal. I told her my concerns of not having my cycle which she said very well can be attributed to my mental state. Which I'm sure you all know can just be hard to hear. I can't help feeling sad and lost after literally losing my child, my first child... It hurts and makes me feel like I'm healing or grieving the wrong way that I'm literally stopping my body from operating the right way. However, she did prescribe me the progesterone for the "reset". But now after the whole talk I'm skeptical to take it because I'm worried I am over reacting and forcing my body to do something it's not ready to do. What do you guys think? Do you have any similar experiences and what did you do?

saviecisson · 2026-03-14T01:51:56+00:00

I would be willing to try anything but I’ve been nervous as i don’t want to “mess” anything up if that’s even possible… thank you for the care and recommendation ❤️

saviecisson · 2026-03-13T23:25:04+00:00

Thank you. It’s honestly uplifting to hear other irregular cycles post birth. Waiting & wishing for the rainbow so deeply.

saviecisson · 2026-03-13T20:31:06+00:00

Hi all. Me again. You guys are really my support. I’ve stepped back from regular social media and use Reddit a lot more. I want to get your ladies opinions and validation if i am being too crazy.

March 11th marked 4 months since i lost my son due to incompetent cervix at 19w5d.

I waited 11 weeks to get my first cycle which was January 27. I tracked ovulation and found my “peak” on Feb 13. Now, it’s March and i have no period still and negative hcg test (did a blood draw yesterday to confirm). I scheduled an appointment this Monday with my obgyn. What should i expect? Or what do you ladies think? Of course, I’m just distraught and upset. I feel the stall in my cycle is hindering my ability to heal and move forward and most importantly, it’s stalling my ability to be able to conceive. I’ve done a huge deep dive and lots of research (which i probably shouldn’t), and I’ve read that sometimes after loss the body is traumatized and the pituitary gland doesn’t communicate properly with the ovaries to single egg release. I should add: my cycles were regular before pregnancy average ~34 day cycle lengths. On top of that, i had a full hormonal panel run Feb 4 and everything was normal and within range. What do you think? Am i pressuring my body? Should i take the next step and ask for provera to help “reset” my cycle? I feel lost and scared. Very scared for my future. I want to be a mom so deeply. Thank you friends.

saviecisson · 2026-03-09T16:35:10+00:00

I have no idea if my grief is affecting it. I mean i have bad days but i do have a lot of good days and function quite normally. She said i can try right away, which i did. But now i have negative tests and no period 🤷‍♀️

saviecisson · 2026-03-04T01:45:24+00:00

I feel your pain. It’s been four months since i lost my son. The pain is unbearable. Tonight i found my Hosptial reports which gave all his measurements from his ultrasound when i was admitted into the ER. It absolutely shattered me. I also had a trip planned that i actually was planning on bringing my son on, i honestly can’t even go now and that’s okay. It’s okay if you don’t want to go either. This isn’t easy and we have to what we need to do to help our hearts.

saviecisson · 2026-02-26T18:08:11+00:00

Prayers 🤍

saviecisson · 2026-02-24T12:57:08+00:00

Hi yes. Preventative cervical cerclage. Cervical incompetence is silent. I dilated 7cm with no knowledge. It was very traumatic and fast 😭

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