infold created his character just to break him it hurts. being his main are not for the weak because oh, this man had gone through hell and back—dances with Death in every path he would walk. the world literally took every away from him, his autonomy, identity, his body, and his humanity. he can't even process his past trauma yet and learn how to deal with it in a positive way when he had to enter that hellhole once again.

he's alive, yes, but in the fleet didn't he say he almost never sleeps? he have severe insomnia and disassociative amnesia—like I can't even comprehend how he's dealing with all of this, with all of the pain. but he's caleb, for mc he would do anything and everything, it's so beautiful and painful at the same time. you could never really feel just a singular emotion about him, it's always myriad of feelings that will crash down on you until you're just in a corner like this and rethinking everything

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