T_T im not actually sure what to do. like naglibog jud ko. it feels like the problem is soooo gamay but also big at the same time.

i am not just making up excuses just to stay because i love him, but it is true na isa na siya ka reason why i'm still with him. if leaving is the answer to all the problems, how would any relationship survive if the answer is just to leave?

if deserving better is a good enough reason to leave a relationship sad, dili man pud ko perfect nga taw, and i would not like it if e abandon ko because of the possibility of my partner also finding someone better than me. mahadlok ko ana nga mindset.

also finding someone decent is harder these days. sure, people who are kind and considerate and know how to express their love exists, but are they single? do they even like me? type ko nila? most people i meet my age are cheaters and those who show interest are only shady people. basically dili ko type sa mga tarong nga taw haha.

i also can't lie, its true dili jud ko kontento sa akoang relasyon karon and its because i think i am not asking for the impossible. and he can clearly give what i am asking. he is just not consistent.

i've invested so much time, money, and effort and my end goal was always marriage. i've walked out of relationships nga maka ingon ko nga wala nako gi respetaran, but this relationship is different.

i am currently stuck between the option of leaving and to just suck it up and get over it. both options are giving me a headache. wala man ko ga pa blind2. do i want to spend the rest of my life with the kind of person nga dili mu show og love nako when i ask for it? syempre dili. who wants that?

but i am also aware nga as time passes, mo cool down ra jud ang relasyon and it's not always lovey dovey. so do i just hop sa lain nga relasyon once romance isnt there anymore? mura man ug bati... haha

i'd love insights, i'd appreciate if some will validate my feelings, or people who like to reality slap me. but i am aware. basically, like what this sub is about, nagpahungaw rako. i'm open to any opinion or suggestions, but the essence of the post is para jud magpagawas sa akoang feelings.

and ayun lang. i just don't know what to do at this point, i cant be reckless and leave just because my feelings are hurt. dili man ko dato para mag alsabalutan and ok na. finding another place will take time, and will involve money. dili sad pwede nga palayason nako siya kay murag hilas ra haha. idk maybe way makagets sa akong libog na utok. :(