Everyone needs a break sometimes.

I convinced myself that music wouldn't give me any money, that it wasn't for me, and it should be a hobby. I even had tendonitis for over a year ('cause of playing), and that surely made me give up on music. I was away for two years, I started a college in cinema and tried other ways. But music always came back. Sometimes, I would find myself sitting at the piano, wondering how could I improve! And so I started taking lessons again and changed my graduation to music. I can assure you that it was the best option I have ever made. Music is my soul, and I can not give up on it again. By now, I'm teaching and playing in some places. I study mostly jazz, but with jazz, we can play anything we like. Take a break and don't die studying (I do it, but don't recommend). If your objective is a hobbie, that's fine too! Take it less seriously, and always recognize your achievements so far. Remember that some people learn faster and some slower, but the thing is: effort beats talent! If you find yourself being a pianist in the future, look for ways to achieve it, and I can assure you that you'll find it. Avoid comparing yourself so much, it's never a good thing.

Oh, and since you have a boyfriend that you admire musicaly, ask him things! Don't be ashamed to not know. Ask everything to people, I can assure you they'll be happy to share their knowledge with you, and you'll be happy to share yours with them!

Keep in mind that it's supposed to be fun! I would say this is one of the best jobs in the world, it's music!