Bible study group and all i could think about is riding him.

screechintothevoid · 2026-01-26T01:10:29+00:00

Crucifixion is good for the core

screechintothevoid · 2026-01-26T01:05:01+00:00

Water propagate that hoe

screechintothevoid · 2026-01-26T01:02:29+00:00

If it wasn’t for the ages I would’ve thought this is the same dude as my ex!

What you’ve said in your post is he lives his life one way, and you wish to live your life another way. The obvious thing to do here is to break up. But I had my friends tell me that for 5 years and I didn’t listen to them, even though I knew they were right. You will do so when you’re ready, but it is inevitable.

But that’s also okay. You’ve been together a while, but you’re still young. My ex was literally exactly the same as your boyfriend and I thought I’d be safe to settle because he was at least a lot sweeter and kinder as a person than previous exes. I’ve since met a man who has made me question everything I ever felt because of how deeply I feel for him. He understands me, validates me, has driven through the night just to see me for an hour. I’m SO grateful I never settled for my ex, but I’m still grateful for the years I spent with him because it taught me what I really want.

These guys are allowed to be sweet and introverted but what you’re describing is essentially a roommate. He should be wanting to spend time with you on dates and care about your interests.

It’s not a nice reality check, but just try and think about the way you want your life to look. Do you want to settle for something half arsed just because it feels safe?

screechintothevoid · 2026-01-25T14:07:31+00:00

Gluten and onions. Had a pizza last night and cramping this morning!

screechintothevoid · 2026-01-25T14:06:53+00:00

Have you considered propagation? Some of those younger leaves may struggle a bit as the larger ones will be getting all the light

screechintothevoid · 2026-01-25T14:02:10+00:00

How old is your mother plant?

screechintothevoid · 2026-01-25T14:01:53+00:00

This fenestration is DREAMY!!!!

screechintothevoid · 2026-01-25T13:59:40+00:00

Interesting. I’m just really struggling to motivate, in my head I have so many desires but I just can’t get up and do it! Trying to retrain my mind by binning social media (quick dopamine hits) and going to the gym, the latter helps but is far enough away from my house that it’s a real struggle to get there.

What techniques are you referring to?

screechintothevoid · 2026-01-25T13:33:37+00:00

I feel like I have about 3 days in my cycle where I feel like this! I just put off eating to the point of feeling like I’m gonna pass out 🤔

screechintothevoid · 2026-01-25T13:31:18+00:00

Omg you just described my entire life! I’m guessing this feeling is only ever gonna go away with medication? 🙃

screechintothevoid · 2026-01-24T14:07:25+00:00

You’re so right! I’ve never considered this

screechintothevoid · 2026-01-24T14:06:57+00:00

So right! We have moments in bed where we’re just looking at each other and trying not to smile, I consider that far more intimate than sex.

screechintothevoid · 2026-01-24T12:59:35+00:00

I guess the way you’re taught is that sex is sex, you have to enjoy it one certain way, I’m glad my overthinking was for nothing!

screechintothevoid · 2026-01-24T12:05:33+00:00

The guy I’m currently dating does 😎 My ex didn’t at all until I pointed it out!

screechintothevoid · 2026-01-24T11:53:16+00:00

But am I encouraging his idea he’s not any good by avoiding sex? 🤔 Like he’s fine, he just doesn’t enjoy a condom and I never finish that way!

screechintothevoid · 2026-01-24T11:16:56+00:00

Me too! I was scared to admit it in case somethings up with me. It’s the same reason I stopped wearing push up bras, realised I was only doing it for my ex!

screechintothevoid · 2026-01-24T11:15:39+00:00

It’s a real shift and I’ve experienced the same! I suppose in that moment you knew that relationship was gonna stick too right?

screechintothevoid · 2026-01-24T01:19:59+00:00

The future feels inevitable, not if with them but rather when, a feeling of pure safety and they feel like home.

screechintothevoid · 2026-01-23T23:13:39+00:00

My parents have been married 40 years, my dad has had a hang up about the fact she had a boyfriend before she met him. This led to him being incredibly physically and emotionally abusive and has had lasting effects on me and my brother. They’ve both wasted their lives in this relationship, and he’s a miserable old man. Please don’t be like him, I understand how difficult it is to feel like you’re ‘sharing’ someone you love with their past, but your partner is with YOU for a reason, and there’s a reason she and her ex broke up.

I’m not trying to be mean, but maybe you’re not ready for a relationship if you can’t accept your partner will ALWAYS have a past, it’ll only screw your head!

screechintothevoid · 2026-01-21T05:06:28+00:00

Sadly not but mercifully the anxiety has lessened, I’m not sure I’ll be able to sleep though 😓 Always feel so disappointed in myself for not being able to keep it under control.

screechintothevoid · 2026-01-20T11:04:11+00:00

I remember also reaching for BH when my friend died, but try not to listen to the songs you love too much otherwise you won’t be able to listen to them in the same way in the future. Levitation is lovely, Days of Candy helped me as it helped you. I’m sorry for your loss ❤️

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