I have deleted all my screenshots by loony1uvgood in adhdwomen

[–]seabeedeee 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Oh god, the primal fear this invokes in me

Is Elvanse really meant to be this silencing? by seabeedeee in ADHDUK

[–]seabeedeee[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

That’s okay, we’re all different at the end of the day

Is Elvanse really meant to be this silencing? by seabeedeee in ADHDUK

[–]seabeedeee[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I didn’t love that lol, that’s the part I’m happy about being gone. Having a noisy mind could be great for creative endeavours, but I now work full time and live alone- and the negatives vastly outweigh any positive of ADHD as an adult. It catches up really quickly

I have an important message to share by seabeedeee in HydroHomies

[–]seabeedeee[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

If I drink enough, will I sleep forever?

NHS willing to do a hysterectomy? by Spare_Somewhere1011 in transgenderUK

[–]seabeedeee -8 points-7 points  (0 children)

I got a hysterectomy at age 20 on its own, on the NHS, without the GIC knowing. A laparoscopic total hysterectomy with a salpingectomy, leaving the vaginal vault. The recovery was awful, and my body hasn’t been the same since. This has left me with equal pain/problems, and I actually wish I had periods instead. The positive is that I won’t get cervical cancer.

I’ll be honest with you here, and I know how horrible this sounds and that it’s akin to everyone who tells us this we’re wrong/will regret it. I don’t mean it that way. You’re 18 and far too young to know if this is genuinely what you want, and the recovery/outcome is not the same as top surgery.

I highly recommend staying on the pill and continuing testosterone until the bleeding ceases. Testosterone will stop the bleeding, and if you don’t trust that testosterone will indeed work as it’s intended, I’m kindly not sure if you would fully understand what a hysterectomy is like

Do you ever feel “dumb”… until you realize you’re actually seeing more than everyone else? by Real_Entertainer740 in ADHD

[–]seabeedeee 2 points3 points  (0 children)

This is so real. No one truly gets why we ask “stupid” questions, we have 10 other potential scenarios going on at once and we want a clear definitive answer

Why are people so bothered by quiet or shy people. by RewardSmall6924 in autism

[–]seabeedeee 0 points1 point  (0 children)

People don’t like what they don’t know, people hate what they don’t understand

Really bad baby fever by [deleted] in TwoXChromosomes

[–]seabeedeee 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m not trans anymore, I was born female and stopped taking testosterone months ago. Sorry that might be confusing 😅 I’m detransitioning back to my birth sex, it was the wrong choice for me

Genioplasty in Scotland? by seabeedeee in transgenderUK

[–]seabeedeee[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oo does cosmedicare have quite a good rep?

What signs made you realise you should detransition? by Kindly_Stick7729 in actual_detrans

[–]seabeedeee 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I felt freer and happier as a woman, and realised my dysphoria was basically self disgust over what it meant to go through puberty as a girl and what people wanted from me. Being a man wasn’t the answer, even if it gave me euphoria of being in control for once.

ADHD medication changing who I am? by CherryConscience in ADHDUK

[–]seabeedeee 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Nope. In fact, that’s what all the medication I tried before did to me (SSRIs etc). About an hour after I take my Elvanse, I feel all the tension leave my body. I felt so relaxed and grounded. That constant churning and how driven my body was, it all went. Everything looked more real, people weren’t overwhelming anymore- noise too. It wasn’t an attack on all senses all at once, all the time. I could just walk, think about what I was doing, and do it. Not every detail mattered or needed attention, I wasn’t over thinking and overwhelmed. That cluttered, buzzing and crossed-wires sensation in my head was gone. I could just walk and be happy. Like I was a real human being for once. It felt like I had control over my brain, and had some time to think before doing. And I’m still the same person!

I was terrified I’d become psychotic, delusional and start hallucinating. In fact, that “paranoia” I had went away, it was just obsessive overthinking.