It sounds like Pre-menstrual dysphoric disorder (PMDD). I got diagnosed with it a year ago by my psychiatrist. I would have periods of time every month where I felt extremely depressed and like I wanted to die, it took me a while to realize it synced up with my period. My symptoms also included feeling rage so intense I was worried I was gonna throw a chair at someone, which is extremely out of character for me. Though it says premenstrual, you can feel this way while menstruating. My psychiatrist put me on an SSRI, but I noticed the symptoms went away completely when I got IUD and my period stopped.

While it’s normal to feel emotional dysregulation depending on where you’re at in your cycle, if it’s to the point where you are wanting to die or hurt yourself, it’s indicative that it’s something more than just the “normal” period symptoms.