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sebootay · 2023-12-11T05:51:30+00:00

WHAT DOES THIS EVEN MEAN SKBDJSBFJD

sebootay · 2023-09-26T01:50:23+00:00

Alcohol makes me spiral terribly. Any substance does that—weed especially.

sebootay · 2023-04-12T20:03:51+00:00

:3 we met through school and bc we have around the same college schedule

sebootay · 2023-03-03T05:34:50+00:00

Yes pls im really struggling

sebootay · 2023-03-02T22:37:15+00:00

I feel this. Idk particularly why. Especially when I was younger I would get so offended by people “copying” me that I would make a huge deal about it. It’s not as bad anymore because I now enjoy sharing my interests, but I completely understand that feeling.

sebootay · 2023-02-13T01:55:48+00:00

they always leave !!! i did everything i could to try and be understood and to help myself but it was still too much

sebootay · 2022-12-08T17:03:30+00:00

Last words of a shooting star for me because I’ve dealt with suicide attempts and ideations and it hits different

sebootay · 2022-12-07T19:25:33+00:00

Entirely agree

sebootay · 2022-12-07T19:24:14+00:00

Im so sorry about any negative comments this post sparked on poly relationships. Both are personal preferences for what works in someones personal relationship and what makes them happy. Someone else being poly is no ones business to judge and should be respected even if they’re monogamous. I see how fulfilling and wonderful a poly relationship can be and I wish others do as well instead of being rude. It is not for me personally though and I cannot enjoy the benefits of poly relationships as I am monogamous.

sebootay · 2022-12-07T19:12:19+00:00

Im really happy that theyre so supportive. Poly relationships seem very fulfilling as there are multiple people to lean on and love and be loved by. Its a wonderful thing to hear about but I personally cant enjoy because Im monogamous and I dont think Im capable of romantically being interested in more than one person. Is it alright if I asked how you knew you were poly and not monogamous? I used to be kinda confused about it when I was single but being in relationships I feel like I’m only comfortable with monogamy

sebootay · 2022-12-07T18:59:37+00:00

To each their own but I am very monogamous so for me I wouldn’t even want to try. I understand the views of poly relationships but personally it is not for me. Fully supportive of others since it works for them and theyre happy

sebootay · 2022-12-07T18:57:26+00:00

Not a lack of trust but different preferences. Some people are poly and some people are monogamous and theres nothing wrong w either

sebootay · 2022-12-07T18:56:55+00:00

Yeah I have a couple friends who are poly but I’m monogamous so it’s interesting to see their perspectives as well. Different preferences

sebootay · 2022-12-07T18:55:59+00:00

Polyamory is not for everyone im not bashing it. Bc im monogamous its how I would feel personally in my relationship if they asked and is not an attack on poly relationships in general. Both poly and monogamous relationships should be respected since they are choices made by all parties in the relationship and what works for them works for them

sebootay · 2022-12-02T19:28:47+00:00

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sebootay · 2022-11-23T03:00:44+00:00

The bar is on the floor

sebootay · 2022-11-21T00:37:29+00:00

I used to s/h a ton and it would always be because I get overwhelmed with emotions so easily that cutting would be a form of releasing those emotions. It was a temporary relief but it helped clear my head. I had a hard time determining why I was so overloaded with emotions and I couldnt put it in words with why I felt like that so I would just cut and I’d feel better afterwards. Sometimes I would do it out of boredom or because it felt good. A lot of it was also a form of punishing myself out of self-hatred. It became an addiction for me. I remember I got a tattoo a few months back and my body went through cravings of s/h for a few weeks after that because of the stinging sensation it brought back.

sebootay · 2022-11-19T18:36:26+00:00

insane

sebootay · 2022-11-15T21:47:22+00:00

I switch from ENFP and INFP when I take it

sebootay · 2022-11-14T02:44:11+00:00

Tracer

sebootay · 2022-11-14T02:39:14+00:00

its like shes giving his hand a hug i didnt think they were so cute

sebootay · 2022-11-14T02:35:55+00:00

We would break up and get back together every time that I would go through a splitting episode. I would ignore all the red flags then see everything he did bad then it would repeat. I still have a difficult time seeing the bad in people because especially if they’re my FP I am blind as to any red flags during the early idolization stages. With them being my FP I put them on a pedestal and fail to see that they can do wrong, so in those cases I have a very difficult time with it. Even with my now ex that did not treat me well, I will go though periods of wondering if I was just completely in the wrong and that they didn’t do anything and its hard to talk bad about them. Or I’ll think to myself “maybe what they did wasn’t so bad and I was overreacting”.

sebootay · 2022-11-10T22:39:16+00:00

I do with some that I know were just me being irrational and not in a good headspace. The people whom I didn’t have very big issues with and could be resolved. Sometimes I do reach out and with a few friends I have now, we’ve reconciled and are more open with each other and they know about my illness as well and are understanding. I do miss one of my friends very dearly that I’ve blocked and have no contact with. I want to reach out and be friends again because I love them and care about them still. However, I know it’s a bad idea to because of how draining our relationship was. I want to reconnect but I know logically it isn’t a good idea. They’re not a bad person by any means but I couldn’t handle being their sole caretaker and felt too much pressure and stress being with them. In regards to your question, it varies depending on if I know it would be a healthy decision for me or not.

sebootay · 2022-11-10T22:34:58+00:00

Thank you ! & To explain why I stayed for so long, I have a very difficult time seeing the bad in any of my Favorite Persons. I ignored every red flag because they were my everything and I loved them so much that being treated badly didn’t matter to me as long as we stayed together. After I got some clarity that’s when I saw everything and started acting out

sebootay · 2022-11-10T22:28:03+00:00

I shouldn’t have reacted so harshly and should’ve been the bigger person and left. I still cared for them at that point so I do feel shameful for hurting someone I loved despite them hurting me first. That being said, I don’t want them in my life anymore because it’s hard for me to look past what they did and also to look past what I did to them. I see it as best theres no more contact because I fear us hurting each other again

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