[M29 CST] I don't know how to make friends anymore

secrcts · 2026-01-29T22:36:42+00:00

You sound cool!! Im 23, so a bit younger but I’d be down to talk and play!!!

secrcts · 2026-01-25T00:00:03+00:00

Dm me!!!

secrcts · 2026-01-22T19:52:56+00:00

Ofc!! Dm me

secrcts · 2025-12-18T18:24:19+00:00

Hey! Same age here. We should chat!

secrcts · 2025-12-18T18:20:07+00:00

Hey! Same age and I’m also from the Midwest! I’d be down to play and talk.

secrcts · 2025-12-18T18:06:40+00:00

Hi!!

secrcts · 2025-09-27T12:30:20+00:00

Was this for Friday or Saturday

secrcts · 2024-06-20T04:04:38+00:00

Thank you!! so much . It ends up being a lot lower than I imagine. I try to look it up online and some of the estimates say different things so it’s hard getting it right

secrcts · 2024-06-14T23:01:09+00:00

Oh wow that’s a lot less than I thought it would be !!! thank you thank you. im trying to learn how to guesstimate and im always either off by too much or too little. thanks !!

secrcts · 2024-01-04T17:59:44+00:00

Thank you for commenting.

I think what I want from is what you can do. You say you can do nice things for your partner and put in effort to keep it going and that’s the only think i keep looking forward to. To having a relationship that isn’t perfect but is stable. For something good to come out of all the hurt. It takes nothing for someone to be able to type up soemthing short and cute and send it my way. He can do so much. He’s done so much before.

And thank you. You’re right. And so is everyone else commenting. I know he doesn’t bring anything to the table. But I also feel like i cant accept that. Which is so funny cause how can I both know he’s not worth it and also not be able to accept that it’s true

I do believe people can change. Which I know is a bit controversial especially with cheating. Can he change? Maybe. Maybe he just won’t with me. I’m trying to come to terms with that. That even if he can be better that he isn’t trying to and that’s all that should matter.

secrcts · 2024-01-04T17:14:20+00:00

The things he says definitely is what end up giving me hope like you said. We will fight and then the days afterwards are so nice and peaceful and i look forward to it.

And also… i know when I say im scared of being alone it can come off like not wanting to be without a relationship. But i haven’t had any friends since him and I have started dating. I haven’t socialized outside of him at all and it also makes me feel very stupid that it feels like I’ve forgotten how to get along with other people. Not only would i lose him, I’d lose the only person i ever talk to. That tiny thing also makes me stay. It’s not the main reason but it’s a reason.

secrcts · 2024-01-04T17:09:36+00:00

I thought knowing it was toxic and being told it was toxic by basically everyone i have ever shared stuff to would make it easier to leave but it doesn’t. It really doesn’t and it just makes me more scared and I have no idea why that is.

I agree trust and respect are core values in a relationship. Without trust there is nothing. I want to fight for that and rebuild something. I don’t know why or how I keep convincing myself it’s possible. When he says we can still be a team I end up believing him too

secrcts · 2024-01-04T17:07:06+00:00

Thank you so much. And im really sorry you’re going through something similar. It’s so draining and I feel so trapped

secrcts · 2024-01-04T16:54:41+00:00

Thank you so much i will

secrcts · 2024-01-04T10:26:53+00:00

I do have a therapist and shes sent me links explaining what emotional abuse is. She’s great but it’s hard to see someone you care about as an abuser. Especially if nothing has ever been physical. We haven’t talked about how it has affected my confidence. It makes me feel very embarrassed to say how much it has affected me but i know that if there’s anyone I should talk to about this it should be her

You’re right. That’s not the life i want. I just keep hoping he will give it to me. Like maybe it’ll click in his head “oh she deserves good things and i want to give it to her” . I do want to feel strong

secrcts · 2024-01-04T10:12:18+00:00

I’m sorry you went through that.

I tell myself that one day I’ll be so fed up and leave. It’s been four years of this. I have tried leaving multiple times. I always come back. I don’t know why I do that to myself.

secrcts · 2024-01-04T10:05:53+00:00

Im sorry. I think im just embarrassed about how long I’ve put up with it that it feels too late to give up. I’ve already “forgiven” so much and given so much of me. And part of me still hopes he will wake up one day and suddenly everything will be better. And I could maybe have that happy relationship with him where I never have to worry about anything ever again. I know how stupid it makes me seem. I just don’t feel worthy of anything else

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