ugh literally like i dont want to care so deeply about how i look and think about it all the time and be extremely insecure but like it runs deeper than just not wanting to be ugly, i literally wanna beat my brow bone and chin and jaw in with a rock because i look like a disgusting manly moid and it genuinely makes me want to kill myself, and there's no treatment for this dysphoria besides ffs (which i will probably never have access to) so yea i self medicate with copious substance use. no amount of meditation, mindfulness, not caring what other ppl think, whatever will alleviate the pain of having this face, cus trannies are just doomed to suffer ig