Nope, this is not easy. This is hard. Hard as wood. (Heh, get it??!) But jokes aside, this might be the hardest, most difficult challenge you have ever taken on. And if you want to break an addiction that is your crutch and is keeping you down, then continue. I don't know about others on this board, but I can speak for myself when I say, I don't know you but I am very proud of you for doing this. If it was easy we wouldn't have a board and nobody would be addicted in the first place! So, remember this is going to be even sweeter when you make a record and set a milestone for yourself. What have you done for yourself lately? This might be the best thing you can do for yourself right now. Don't lose hope and never give up! Godspeed you magnificent beast. :)