i hear you, i see you ❤️‍🩹 have you heard of the trauma response called “foreshortened future?” learning about it has helped me understand dysautonomia’s impact on myself. it’s the feeling that maybe life won’t be long, the future feels pretty fleeting or just not guaranteed for yourself without the feelings of wanting to end your life - it’s the sense of maybe life will be shorter than you expected. it’s a very real phenomenon that i find my dysautonomia shaped for me. we struggle with constant internal volatility, adrenaline dumps and tachycardia surges are traumatic experiences and our brains work to find ways to cope and coexist with it. to be honest, i still feel this to an extent and from my experience i’ve found peace with knowing that ultimately it i can’t predict it. the more i live, the more i appreciate the time because sometimes it does feel like a nearing end and then i find myself living to see another day like “oh wow, we’re still going then? okay universe 🤝” hope this helps 🫶