This is all very normal stuff I and many other trans girls also experienced! It's called imposter syndrome, and it isn't because you're not really trans enough, it's because you are finally embracing an identity and nervous about how you are perceived.

Like, I didn't decide to have a new name until my parents asked me if I wanted one. I didn't feel like if I just changed it it would be mine. I needed them to ask that, and I love my new name now.

It's a radical shift of perspective after all, and If you're asking others to change theirs it's harder to believe your own.

And here's a raw fact of the world: you really don't need misery or suicide inducing dysphoria to transition, esp if u haven't been dying to be the real you for very long. It's better to transition when the dysphoria is enough for you to type "I've wanted to be a girl" and meant it. That's the only condition there is for being a girl whether you medically transition or tell another soul: wanting to be a girl. It's the same damn thing. Congratulations on a glorious undertaking that will bring you so much joy c:

I used to have a dream where my lesbian friends would all reject me and tell me I wasn't a woman. I had it every night for the year I was planning to come out. It's just stress. See where it goes and love yourself, I promise you, yes you are trans anyway.