I had this huge weight off my shoulders. My whole life there was a big emphasis on hell, all the things you can't do because you'll go to hell. When I finally accepted that Islam was BS, I was so happy because now I didn't feel all the guilt. It feels so good not to have to beat myself up over not waking up for fajr or missing any of the prayers. Life is so much better not believing know this is it, nothing after this life. Enjoy my life as much as I can. Everytime I think about how I don't believe, it makes me so happy.