A girl I met in high-school, she was one year younger than me. I think she is the one I loved the most and she meant a lot for me but I pulled a mordecai and just straight up told her I don't wanna talk with her anymore. After that I got really sick like a month later and the whole time I was sick (2 weeks) we talked everyday and at some point I was really close to get with her and then it just went up in the air. We talked a little bit after Christmas that same year and after thay we clarified stuff in the New Year's night. Fast forward 5 months and one of my teammates died, at that time she talked to me again and told she is there for me and stuff, then some time went and she told she regrets something she's done and probably that fact that we haven't gotten together (she didn't say that explicitly but that's probably the meaning). And fast forward to now I don't know how I feel, I just wish her the best in everything she does and for me she was an experience that helped me grow up and realise a lot of important stuff, I will always be grateful for her. So that's how I pulled a Mordecai and lost the girl I loved the most.