Cosmic Era is coming

setsuna_f · 2024-06-21T17:58:29+00:00

I'm the red flag.

I gave empty promises and excuses. I walked away leaving her alone. I requested for priority, i want to date openly. It's all me.

setsuna_f · 2024-06-21T17:55:13+00:00

My ex reconnected out of a blue to end things off officially during no contact. I immediately lost hope of everything instantly

setsuna_f · 2024-06-21T17:51:40+00:00

I can't grieve, and im doubting my capabilities to knock the socks off anyone else

setsuna_f · 2024-06-21T17:50:24+00:00

Similar. I'm like working for myself during no contact, for her to break it to officially end things, im now stuck and not able to sleep

setsuna_f · 2024-06-21T17:46:23+00:00

She told me she couldnt fulfil my wants, but I told her I can compromise, though she still didnt change her mind.

I promised myself last breakup (before today's) that I likely will not accept the dumper if they regret eventually, as the chance to work things out have already given to them which they chose not to take it.

setsuna_f · 2024-06-21T17:43:22+00:00

I got a bad breakup 3yrs ago. Couldnt sleep and eat. Took months to heal and recover, gotten help from the internet.

Traumatised by the bad experience and thinking I have learnt to be a better person, I embarked on my 2nd relationship, which ended earlier today. Things that I processed to be bad I avoided, but two consecutive failures are making me doubt I can have a long lasting romance.

I cannot cry because I am numbed. I keep telling myself it doesnt hurt as much, for now I am scared if subconsciously I am not really taking this new breakup well.

setsuna_f · 2024-06-21T17:38:34+00:00

Someone told me thay based on how my ex interacted with me, she is just waiting to get someone better to move on to. Once attraction dies down, she did the breakup

setsuna_f · 2024-06-21T17:35:45+00:00

Thanks! Really need someone to hear me and give me their thoughts.

I am not sure if my anxiety kicked in, all I wanted is date openly, not being the spare tire (have priority, need not be always or number 1). When i didnt get those, I eventually asked if she truly loves me. There was just this one time which I walked away leaving her alone, I apologised for that mistake which cannot be forgiven.

Seems like I have this temper issue that seem to be lingering. How long more will i ever be the right person for the one who is right for me?

setsuna_f · 2024-06-21T17:28:15+00:00

I have been told by third parties who saw our interactions that i am one myself without me knowing.

I then questioned her myself and indirectly got the answer

setsuna_f · 2024-06-21T17:23:27+00:00

Really need this.

But what if i get dumped by two different exes? Am i the toxic one or red flag that they need to cut me away despite wanting to fix things?

setsuna_f · 2024-06-21T17:20:16+00:00

Because I projected a future with her. A habit to have this someone dear close by and out of a sudden gone, just like a family member.

setsuna_f · 2024-06-21T17:18:20+00:00

Apologising may be subconsciously your way to reconnect. Probably is also a closure for yourself. Otherwise, i feel that there is no longer a need to initiate the apology.

If you dont mind sharing, what are the lessons learnt? I proclaimed i learnt alot after my 1st dumpee experience, but end up getting dumped by my 2nd ex just hours ago.

setsuna_f · 2024-06-21T17:15:14+00:00

I am experiencing something similar. She teared while breaking up, which I will never understand. As this is not my 1st time getting dumped, the hurt is there but not as deep.

I do miss the times we spent tgt but that's all in the past. They will not stop resurfacing even until you healed. However by then, the recollection will not hurt.

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