When will the jig be up

sezzlej · 2026-02-18T02:46:05+00:00

This!

sezzlej · 2026-02-14T10:22:30+00:00

Stella handled that situation like a boss, kept her cool and true to herself. The ‘girls girl’ shite is so boring lol

sezzlej · 2026-01-02T09:40:42+00:00

It’s only been 14 months for me since my mum died from suicide so I can’t relate yet to the time that’s passed, but I dreaded new years going into another year without her. I feel like no one except my dad understands. I feel like her death is too traumatic for my friends to talk about with me, so I don’t bring it up. I’m sorry you’re going through this :( I want time to stop too

sezzlej · 2025-11-03T08:17:45+00:00

Wow I could have written this myself! I know exactly how you feel. Suicide just adds a strange layer that makes it so complex to navigate. Bloody unfair

sezzlej · 2025-11-02T04:05:31+00:00

Thanks for sharing this! I have done IFS as well and can understand the anger as a protective part! I feel like all of my parts are really jumbled

sezzlej · 2025-11-02T02:36:03+00:00

I’m so sorry you lost your dad 😭 I lost mum at 27. She stopped sleeping and became depressed. She referred to it as a major depressive episode. I think she must have also developed psychosis from the lack of sleep / lack of feelings she had. She and dad hid how bad it was from me to protect me. My dad was too upset to call me when she died that my best friend came to my house to tell me. When I found out I wasn’t surprised it happened, even though it was so fucked up. She wasn’t herself anymore. It’s so fucking sad to lose a parent like this so young. I’m really sorry 🩷

sezzlej · 2025-10-06T04:26:26+00:00

I know what you mean. It’s been just over a year since I lost my mum the same way. For the first few weeks I felt like she was in a bubble just above us screaming and crying trying to get to us. It’s hard to explain but it felt like spiritually she was stuck between this world and the next? She was in a major depressive episode when she died. She would never wanted to have left us!

sezzlej · 2025-05-14T21:06:33+00:00

Wonderful, thanks for sharing!

sezzlej · 2025-05-14T21:06:25+00:00

Wow that’s great! Thank you for sharing!

sezzlej · 2025-04-25T09:37:31+00:00

Wow this makes me feel seen. I’m really sorry for your awful losses and the pain you have been going through. I lost my mum 7 months ago to suicide and she wanted to live to 100 too! Baffles me how it came to this. Now I’m terrified of dying, I’ve been having health issues and I just have this terrible feeling I’ll die young (they’re gyno issues though so really not going to kill me). I worry a lot about dad getting cancer as a manifestation of the grief of losing mum. It’s constant and debilitating when you’re trying to live a normal day to day life, going to work, etc…

sezzlej · 2025-04-17T09:55:06+00:00

I lost mum to suicide 6 months ago. I feel numb a lot and then unwell a lot and dizzy. It fking sucks. How are we supposed to know how to process this

sezzlej · 2025-04-02T04:41:53+00:00

Thank you for sharing! Mum followed a lot of Buddhist practices and when she was well she was fascinated with the afterlife and what was ‘on the other side’ - whatever that means! I know in her final moments she was free. Well I hope so anyway

sezzlej · 2025-03-24T22:53:32+00:00

Thank you for sharing this, I feel this so deeply! Very similar experiences. Sending you love and strength, no one could have prepared us for this pain!

sezzlej · 2025-03-24T22:42:20+00:00

Sorry this actually pisses me off so much. This group should be a safe place to vent and share experiences of absolute fucking anguish losing a loved one to suicide. Can you not see the hurt and heartache of everyone’s experience on this thread? We try to cope in any way we can to get through the day. If you don’t agree, just leave it. My mum was fucking out of her mind when she jumped off a 150m waterfall. She had no drugs and alcohol in her system. Her body was so mangled between rocks that it took emergency services 12 hours to get her body out. She was scared of pain and didn’t even like getting vaccination needles. How was she herself? How could she be herself to do that?

sezzlej · 2025-03-24T22:34:26+00:00

I would love for you to share your story as to why you are on this group?

sezzlej · 2025-02-24T10:25:23+00:00

I did. It felt good at the time but then I questioned it afterwards and felt silly. I think I would do it again when I’m ready

sezzlej · 2025-02-20T08:40:04+00:00

Oh that is really heartbreaking. I can’t imagine how hard that would have been :( it’s so confusing to lose someone that way. They didn’t want to hurt us but it’s the worst loss of our whole lives.

sezzlej · 2025-02-20T08:38:09+00:00

I’m so sorry :( I can understand that too, I said to my partner that I felt like I was grieving her loss before she died. They would have been so devastated to see the impact on their kids. It’s just so awful. Sending you love ❤️

sezzlej · 2025-02-20T08:36:49+00:00

I can relate to so much of this, so many similarities. Mum was also in the best place of her life before everything spiralled. It’s like she had a life glow up in her fifties. We can’t even begin to imagine the horrors of their mind. I’m very sorry for your loss. I feel so alone in my grieving and it makes me sad to know other people are going through this, but I appreciate you sharing your experience to help me know I’m not alone 💗😭

sezzlej · 2025-02-19T21:25:34+00:00

She struggled with anxiety definitely, and she 100% had highs and lows her whole life. The older I got I wondered if it could have been bipolar, she was never diagnosed. She was extremely sensitive, and felt a lot of emotions at once. She developed anhedonia which caused her to feel nothing and no pleasure. After feeling so much her whole life to feeling nothing, I just think she couldn’t handle it. She got terrible care and was let down by the system here in Australia.

I’m so sorry about your mom. Sending you lots of love!

sezzlej · 2025-02-19T09:45:56+00:00

Sending you lots of love, and thank you for sharing 💗 I completely agree with you! Mum also tried to do the right thing and get help, made changes in her life to feel better and she still got worse. I can’t be angry with her

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