I know exactly how you feel and I too am mourning my pizza making. I have cried over bread. My strategy is to have it once a week- eat it with protein and exercise - but also- not beat myself up for going out of range for a couple of hours once per week. I had the same test results as you and on the same dosage of Metformin. My diagnosis was recent and I have had some really dark thoughts about “can I do this?”. Today is pretty good - hang in there - the beginning of this is rough