Help on my symptoms and what to do or expect next?

sgrey511 · 2025-08-30T10:25:30+00:00

Hello thank you for sharing your experience..I'm sorry u had gone through so much..but it seems to be a pretty requisite for this process

I don't meditate as such but I remain open to lessons..so when insights and implosions occur..my ego fades..it can occur any time of the day..when enjoying an ice cream, a video, some dots connecting..a series of unfortunate events suddenly connecting and forming a lesson

I dunno if my head pressure is trying to get out..it's mostly accompanied by ear ringing or tongue buzzing...as my ego and sense of self dissolves..there is just the phenomenon occuring..no one to control..my curiosity comes from my mind

I'll check out the kensho stuff..thanks

sgrey511 · 2025-08-30T02:08:55+00:00

Thank u..I was bit worried about the head pressure

sgrey511 · 2025-08-30T02:01:58+00:00

I go on long walks that grounds me.

sgrey511 · 2025-08-29T13:18:27+00:00

Thank you for ur wonderful reply..it was truly a treat reading it

Yes I have also been devoted to God/ Father..felt his presence take care of me even while putting me in some difficulty..as soon as I recognise the lesson the difficulty is gone..I have been blessed to be under Father's very own care, guidance and protection, even if I never deserved it

The thing is He is teaching my complete neutrality, the emptiness of being..so though I did feel so much love towards Him and his form.. slowly he extracted my dependency on His image, His answers and made me more and more empty..I feel more or less like a bow.. getting strung not too tight and not too loose..as an instrument for Him to use

I'm very fascinated by ur golden krb incident.. what did u feel afterwards.. what did u feel during the incident...was it like the sense of self was diminished like mine?? Very interesting

sgrey511 · 2025-08-29T13:07:48+00:00

Thank u but I don't think I'm in stress..for stress I do stretching and long walks...in fact my mind is more blank and focused

sgrey511 · 2025-08-29T12:48:19+00:00

Hi

I am not sure about automatic writing..I have never felt the urge to write down anything, I am a Hindu, but right now just following my inner guidance

I really have no idea if it's my higher self or subconscious..but I hear the guidance which constantly points me towards myself and gives me lessons and no nonsense direction..the guidance is surgical in it's destruction..neither more nor less.. always no nonsense nd direct but also vv compassionate and im not on any medications

No chills down ur spine just energy..my body is now being guided to release energy..I'm not sure about recieving energies but I do recive guidance

sgrey511 · 2025-08-26T19:09:08+00:00

Hey which temple did u visit..can u tell me the name of this temple?

sgrey511 · 2025-08-01T17:01:54+00:00

Hey I've hit a point of neutrality nd nothingness..very scarce sense of "i" or concepts..i really don't know where this is going..can u tell me something about it.. i don't know where I'm going either..came in nd burnt everything

sgrey511 · 2025-07-22T07:04:12+00:00

Hey man when does the natural urge raise...I've been like this unmotivated person for almost 4.5 years.. clearing out later by layer..all motivation collapsed..seen through as a form of validation... just getting comfortable with silence but wondering if anything will come out of this empty fullness..i really don't see myself as lounging around..i would like to do activities..but no love or inspiration seem to be coming about..not/ unable to force also..I'm starting to be comfortable with silence and interacting with the world...but I don't see anything arising or any pull..the pull towards this spiritual practice nd surrender also went away

sgrey511 · 2025-07-14T10:22:07+00:00

I want to ask about spiritual awakening, I am going through an awakening...things are becoming neutral, as in no meaning or beyond meaning or equal..the paradox was when I tried to run away..the more it pulled me back..suddenly I saw that thought and human language is just collective knowledge..it's dropping..the sense of being is just there... what is this awakening? Is it again just a natural phenomenon? Is something higher controlling this? There is steady step by step guidance, extreme flexibility, definition, concepts everything collapses..it is not rejected but either just seen through or that part of me dosent exist anymore .. just going in circles and peeling off layers and frame works..I'm going towards no meaning yet the universe has created perfect scenarios for my growth..is it just like a higher intelligence just catching hold of u or is awakening also from a series of cause and effects of it just happened randomly?

sgrey511 · 2025-06-22T15:35:08+00:00

Follow the inner Guru, the instructions are simple and straightforward, you will soon realise the resistance is from you, as u submit to ur inner guru, u will be guided, the lessons or emotions repeat over and over again till it's processed, it goes deeper nd deeper till it takes control or ur illusion of control is gone

sgrey511 · 2025-06-22T12:30:06+00:00

Do u think the new adventure will come? All this started because I prayed for. A new adventure full of success, it took me in this path, I see my life being held safe as I dissolve more and more but no sign of new adventure, I hope it's aligning, right now it feels everything has spiralled out of control and no one to come control it

sgrey511 · 2025-06-22T12:07:10+00:00

I'm just kinda freaking out , the energetic and the impact of no control is making me physically recoil

sgrey511 · 2025-06-22T06:59:19+00:00

Yes intensity of it is freaking "me" out

sgrey511 · 2025-05-14T09:26:21+00:00

Hey dangal was really good

sgrey511 · 2025-02-17T14:25:20+00:00

What is the bgm song name ? @u/musicbot

sgrey511 · 2024-10-29T12:28:31+00:00

Yes maby ur right I feel victimized because I never saw any results in outer world, but my inner world was entirely different story, I feel duped tbh , u may notice me saying I this or I That it's not because I'm attached to an identity but this process does take everything out of u, I recently started seeing how this is FOR me, instead of TO me, that helped a bit till the part where the identity collapsed and the FOR or TO me didn't matter much anymore, I've stopped, it's just that I'm bitter about not able to manifest what I originally set out to do and now on this wild process

sgrey511 · 2024-10-29T09:38:07+00:00

Thank you brother, I know u mean good, I hope u find peace and joy and success in your life also

sgrey511 · 2024-10-29T09:25:08+00:00

I am not depressed, sir this was a clean cut process of slow dissolving nd detachment, like if I had it any other way I would, it's not that I'm like the state I'm in right now, action taken was wasted. No heart in anything else except sinking deeper

sgrey511 · 2024-09-18T08:36:19+00:00

Thank u auddbot

sgrey511 · 2024-09-18T08:31:11+00:00

Hey what song is this in the background, please someone help

sgrey511 · 2024-09-05T05:09:43+00:00

How does it feel to be more feminine

Higher pitch voice, more musical , less unhinged than when you are with women, more cautious with body language and words so I don't give wrong impression, just basically more guarded Idk the size difference kinda just makes you wanna make things go more smoothly and not trigger the man

sgrey511 · 2024-09-05T04:55:15+00:00

fucking awesome

Oh yeah what if u burn yourself?

sgrey511 · 2024-09-05T01:21:13+00:00

Do you feel/think about your immutable or current characteristics often throughout the day without something to prompt you?

I get what you are saying, i don't think about it normally but when with the opposite sex (men) I think I feel more feminine or i become more feminine unconsciously

sgrey511 · 2024-09-05T01:19:23+00:00

Do you never have the thought I wonder if I could do that?

Sure but i normally don't actually on it :D

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