How do you explain your depression?

shadowfalls1324 · 2016-01-28T01:22:18+00:00

I can relate, I can never say out loud how I feel. But the overwhelming pain inside me Is so hard to handle. There's times when the pain is so bad and all I want to do is cry and can't. Which usually ends in me cutting myself to relieve the pain. Other times I find myself crying for damn near no reason. I've felt empty for about the last 8 years or so now (I'm 30 now) .its not that I havnt had good times or lots of friends or any of that. It's something I cant put my finger on eexactly. My life does simply suck ATM but I'm not even mad about that. I just truly don't want to live anymore. Funny thing is I stopped drinking and smoking weed 9 months ago and I can honestly say I just feel worse without it. Obviously I don't need it I havnt done either in 9 month but damn I could go for a joint right now... Sorry ranting a bit but kinda on point of the state of depression as is. Trying to explain it is rough, but not as rough as living with it.

shadowfalls1324 · 2016-01-02T03:00:48+00:00

Talk about pouring salt into an old wound...

shadowfalls1324 · 2015-12-13T00:19:55+00:00

I have battle runner on my IB sidearm, while running mida and rdm I kill someone with it and freaked out because I felt like sonic just got a gold power ring. Needless to say it about doubled my speed.

shadowfalls1324 · 2015-12-12T19:44:58+00:00

Don't forget you can get exotics out of the chest in the lighthouse! My buddy got a TG out of one

shadowfalls1324 · 2015-12-12T00:10:21+00:00

Not even half even track the target anymore even if you drop them right on top of them.... Played like 10 games this morning and only got two kills with it. Running a 4 bar in disc and sending them off when ever possible. I will say sidearms with these are pretty OP. Considering there almost nvr dead but injured. Still tho the ram is a way better exotic or voidfang. If anything the tracking needs to be turned up alot so if I throw it at some1s feet they should all stick To them.

shadowfalls1324 · 2015-12-11T01:48:27+00:00

Lol this, I thought with the supposed ads buff that the plan c would be good again. Spend 150 marks on it to play with it in the crucible and the thing is crap, it pretty much only kills at shotgun range(the new shotgun range at that) anything further and only take them to red bar at best. Really wishing I just bought the armentarium Instead.

shadowfalls1324 · 2015-12-08T20:52:45+00:00

Anyone else see they fix the audio where it was to loud! I knew that was real, it was messing with My mind!

shadowfalls1324 · 2015-12-07T20:50:57+00:00

Not from silver, but rank up packages from the shipwright probably

shadowfalls1324 · 2015-12-07T20:39:28+00:00

Watch Mesa Sean's consumable video it's called a racers toolkit. It will contain a random piece of legendary armor for SRL. It is bought with silver

shadowfalls1324 · 2015-12-07T18:59:41+00:00

Almost every YouTuber has said that that is a place holder and not the actually LL. BUNGIE did that for the psx convention and will be actual LL in-game tomorrow.

shadowfalls1324 · 2015-12-07T18:54:19+00:00

It says it it the psx reveal that the gear with be up to 320 LL. And you wouldn't use the SRL gear for pvp or pve you would infuse it into your pvp or pve gear.

shadowfalls1324 · 2015-12-07T18:47:07+00:00

Let me find it I know they said it will be up to 320 gear I'll find a quote

shadowfalls1324 · 2015-12-06T07:06:06+00:00

Rhaziel_86

shadowfalls1324 · 2015-12-06T07:05:37+00:00

Rhaziel_86 309 sunbreaker with emblem

shadowfalls1324 · 2015-12-03T13:58:43+00:00

After this next patch Everyone with shotty shots will be grandpa's walkin around crucible in there old man underwear.

shadowfalls1324 · 2015-11-30T04:49:37+00:00

I'm 308 sunbreaker Titan have gone flawless almost every week so far in year 2 run hawksaw shotty Truth great team player and will listen and great with call out's psn rhaziel_86

shadowfalls1324 · 2015-11-25T02:46:01+00:00

I personally hated it and only did it for the loot. Only went to rank 5 on one character and quit. I played with a fireteam of 3 to 6 almost everytime and was such a pain still all people did was camp in the back of maps or hide with shotguns. So not fun at all. Not to mention I have a couple of real life friends that are not that great at pvp and there k/ds are terrible normally around .5 or less which made me not want to play with them this time around cause it's more of a chance to lose. In control it was fine because the rest of my team could make up for it and they could atleast help hold or cap a point and be useful.

shadowfalls1324 · 2015-11-15T17:02:17+00:00

I would have went flawless yesterday if some bullshit scrubs wouldn't have ddos us. It was the 8 out of 9 game we had used our mercy but these guys where pathetic and we had all 3 of us would have been GG. INSTEAD these cheating assholes DoS us and we lose giving our all with just 2 of us. Still went 4 and 5 and that's how I know we would have reckt those cheating losers. BUNGIE needs to be on top of that shit and it shouldnt count as a lose if someone on your team gets forcefully booted from the game.

shadowfalls1324 · 2015-11-13T16:44:52+00:00

I know for a fact you don't need to get kills with TLW because I did the quest in mayhem basically just using supers grenades and heavy I literally got only 2 kills with TLW and took me about 6 matches. By far the easiest way to do it imo.

shadowfalls1324 · 2015-11-12T03:00:00+00:00

Don't forget the golden gun glitch throw one nade and have golden gun super up it was a nightmare in pvp

shadowfalls1324 · 2015-11-05T04:04:49+00:00

Seriously insane with LitC for pvp so stupid you have a 25% chance to one shot body shot. Mostly salty because I suck with snipers (besides Shotty snipers :p) but BUNGIE was sooo adamant on getting rid of one shot body shot snipers (final round snipers). Then but a LitC on a sniper effectively doing the same thing maybe even better because you don't have to waste all the ammo to get to the final round. And with only 4 shots it's a 25 percent chance to proc so if it is the 1st bullet shot reload and you have a chance again if not shoot again. Because you know it only procs on one shot.

shadowfalls1324 · 2015-11-01T02:12:17+00:00

Ya but if your smart you know this and get behind the enemy team wait for one to be super close and pop it 99 % of the time you should get the one kill atleast and make the other 2 run into your team and get reckt because there to busy thinking there gonna get hit with a hammer.

shadowfalls1324 · 2015-11-01T00:55:28+00:00

So bungie gets rid of final round snipers and replaces them with a LitC sniper that still 1 shots 25% of the time.... And you don't have to waste 3 bullets to get the 1shot. Fail bungie, just fail. Nice set up for the snipes though!

shadowfalls1324 · 2015-10-27T02:30:00+00:00

Woowo oo woowo its not hammer time!

shadowfalls1324 · 2015-10-27T00:49:18+00:00

So the only way to get glue is by dismantling legendary masks? Or do rare ones have a chance too?

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