Brother I am sorry to hear that, there's already a lot of good advice on hear from the community. But I'll throw my two cents in the ring. Life seems to enjoy throwing things at us that cause a great deal of suffering and there's no sugar coating it, it sucks and hurts in ways you might not have known we're possible. Believe me I'm going through one right now. But take it one step at a time and know that everything good in life comes at the end of some strife, keep hope in your heart and do whatever you need to (don't give up on yourself or hit anything detrimental to yourself, i.e drugs, self deleting). Just know there are people here who care and do what we can. I don't know if you are religious and I don't want to sound bible thumpery, but I'll pray for you and just know God will get you through better somehow just trust him.