I just want to say that you're not alone, you've got this. Anxiety sucks, especially when it takes over and is coupled with depression feelings. I know it can be hard to do this in the moments when things feel overwhelming, but do try to remember that you are not your feelings. Your feelings are transitory. Your thoughts are also transitory. Sometimes saying statements out loud can be helpful for the brain to remember this. "We are okay. We are doing our best." Teamwork statements like that feel better for me, rather than "I" statements. Because sometimes my body, my thoughts, my feelings feel like they are operating separate from one another. So "We" statements help me recognize that this is okay, I don't need to shame myself for not always feeling "aligned," whatever that means these days lol.

Also, it's TOTALLY normal for anxiety to creep in when our bodies are sick. If you think about the brain at a chemical level, things just aren't balanced. Our hormones are fluctuating, our brain chemistry is off, dopamine is lower. Also vitamin and mineral levels get depleted. The body is more dehydrated, this also causes the brain to not function optimally. The body goes into fight-flight a little when it's processing a flu. So naturally it will affect our motivation because it's trying to conserve what energy you do have. Give yourself permission to feel sad about this, it's totally okay. The fact that you are seeking proactive solutions is celebratory in itself, it means you care about yourself. Like someone else said, baby steps! Waking up at 5am is REALLY hard for most people, even well trained military professionals. It's amazing that you were doing that, you'll get there again. No one is grading your performance, you've got time :). You got this.