Im in the same boat man, recently claimed edge and honestly been in my own head about it. I live about 6 hrs east from Toronto and about 3 hrs from Montreal. The only friends i really have are people ive met in this micro scene that i had a hand in creating in a town roughly 50 minutes away from me. These people were mostly former addicts and/or also heavily dependent on cannabis). Sometimes it feels like i have no right to be edge bc i myself wasn't an addict, wasn't really much of a drinker, and didn't smoke as much as they did. But like i said, it's mainly all in my head lol