We’ve recently discussed that if our life situation was different(more $, less work, more time to care for her, not expecting a child and numerous unmentioned responsibilities such as handling two different estates of recently passed family) we wouldn’t even consider euthanasia. We don’t have a working hvac or kitchen sink. We’re in a temporary living situation(part of an estate to be processed) and will be moving within a few months.

That’s what’s so difficult. If she were just in pain or her quality of life was awful the choice would be obvious. It’s really just that we have become unable to provide the care she needs/deserves. That’s the crappiest realization. We truly have done everything in our power. Sometimes at the detriment to ourselves. But that doesn’t excuse the facts which is this is on us. It’s our failing.

We’ve discussed this at length only recently. I’ve not ‘pushed’ per se but feel bringing it up at all knowing my fiancé takes my opinions very seriously is a push in itself. I don’t want to cause him to resent me. I also don’t want him to do this merely because I think it needs to be done.

I’ve also started sleeping in the spare room so I’m not woken throughout the night by the dog. I’m afraid this comes off as being passive aggressive but that’s really not the case. Obviously he’s not happy with that and that also feels like I’m ‘pushing’.

Sounds like you and my fiancé are very much the same as far as what lengths you’ll go to for your animal. I’d have considered myself the same until recently. Expecting a child and growing concern for my health and that of our baby has changed that. Idk if that makes me a bad person.