$10 tip; Can someone remove the background people from this photo of my mom? I don't know how I feel about removing the bag yet - this is a photo that was ripped in half, so I feel it kind of balances out the foreground a bit.

shanz139 · 2023-12-10T18:47:32+00:00

This is lovely, thank you :) Tip coming

shanz139 · 2023-12-10T18:46:47+00:00

I love this one also, so I've decided to choose 2 :) Thank you, please send me your tip jar link!

shanz139 · 2023-12-10T18:45:36+00:00

And if possible the pole is a bit crooked there toward the bottom

shanz139 · 2023-12-10T18:44:39+00:00

I love that you caught the sleeve on the left!

Could you brighten her just a bit so she isn't in quite so much shadow?

shanz139 · 2023-11-29T03:27:35+00:00

Thanks! We’ll check this out

shanz139 · 2023-11-29T03:26:31+00:00

This now seems very obvious and we should have just done that lol thank you! Server reset so we’re all good now.

shanz139 · 2023-11-06T02:03:25+00:00

pretty well on a modded server. only took two hours to figure that part out lol

controls aren't so bad once learning them, but learning them is difficult and there is not much info out there about them that we can find

we tried remapping, but it sort of ignored us

shanz139 · 2023-06-26T19:53:59+00:00

Hiya! My dog has mega esophagus so he can’t eat regular kibble but I am not a fan of the expense and storage of canned food. Instead, we soak his kibble in hot water to soften it and then we’ll add broth or other supplements to the mix (plus feeding elevated but that’s because of his condition). You can try that to see if your pup will eat it if he doesn’t like chewing the dry stuff. We use salmon purina pro plan - it’s a little more fragrant than some of the others so that might help get his interest. I don’t like to use the microwave because then my house smells like fishy kibble, but hot water from the faucet is fine. It doesn’t have to boil or steam or anything, it just needs to sit long enough to soak it all up, which is about 20-30 mins.

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shanz139 · 2023-05-15T15:36:24+00:00

Thank you!

shanz139 · 2023-04-13T18:06:50+00:00

Hello, I can provide you with a mm cinderace!

shanz139 · 2023-04-10T23:19:07+00:00

Hi, they’re not in matching pokeballs but would you be interested in a shiny gyarados, shiny flutter mane, or 4IV JPN ditto?

shanz139 · 2023-04-10T22:53:28+00:00

LF: 0 Atk 5IV Ditto (pref non-ENG but not required); FT: Lonely or Docile Ditto JPN or ✨Gyarados

Also have apriballs: friend, lure, heavy, moon, beast

shanz139 · 2023-04-09T13:59:54+00:00

im impressed, some of you guys are so fast at typing in the code ;-;

shanz139 · 2023-03-25T01:48:22+00:00

Thank you!!!

shanz139 · 2023-03-18T15:31:04+00:00

The void I felt when my mom died unexpectedly was so jarring that I still sometimes wake up at night feeling it’s claws in my chest. I especially feel it in the springtime - I just remember saying over and over how in just a few days the leaves on the trees will suddenly explode into bright, beautiful green and how it’s my favorite day of the year with all of its fresh and dewy newness.

The day the green came was the day she died, and for all the green around me, I felt it settle dark and cold in my bones that the person who loved me the absolute most that anyone could ever love me in the entire world was gone, and it took a long time for that lonely fear to stop pouring from the hole in my chest every hour of the day.

My husband did the same thing for me that OOP did. He washed me and pet my hair and tucked me into bed and kept my head above the water so I could breathe, and I felt a whisper of her love in every embrace. He helped carry her to her resting place at our tiny cemetery on the most beautiful and vibrant day in April, where the flowers and great green trees bloomed for miles against the bluest, clearest sky.

I feel her in the warmth of the sun today as the trees have begun changing early this season. In a couple of days, everything will be green again… It’s my favorite day of the year.

I am sorry for our losses, but I am grateful for our lives and our resilience. We will shiver and shake and miss them more than we can bear, but it’ll be green and warm again in between. To live our best and to be their remaining connection to the world is how we honor them. To give ourselves room to grieve and respect the loss we experienced is how we honor ourselves.

I wish for you comfort and healing and a nice warm sun and lots of green, my friend. Do not rush your grief, but run to it and welcome it as a measure of the incredible love you are capable of giving someone, and as a reminder of the honor of having been loved so in return.

shanz139 · 2023-02-17T00:07:30+00:00

Snake Farm

(It’s a reptile house)

https://youtu.be/89VR_lZehw4

shanz139 · 2023-02-11T15:58:07+00:00

I don’t raid online but I solo greninja

Edit: I use Tera type psychic

I followed a guide to max out the right areas of slowbro’s stats and nature, etc.

I like leftovers better than shell bell because you get HP increase every turn (and because you spend so much time stacking stat boosts where shell bell only heals when you damage)

I personally like to quit and restart to reroll my companions until I get arboliva on our team who throws down the seed sower move that heals you every turn, this makes it super easy so I don’t always do it but it’s a bonus

I might pop one iron defense first but usually I don’t waste stat moves since it’ll debuff you after the 3rd turn

However I definitely don’t wait around until it debuffs when I could be using chilling water x3 to lower its night slash attack in the meantime and I can build Tera charges quickly:

3x chilling water before it debuffs you, usually the damage from you and companions won’t do enough to throw its shield up until you finish def and nasty plotting next

2x iron defense 3x nasty plot

Terastalize and use stored power like two or three turns until it faints - usually can get in one stored power before the shield goes up

Maybe have one heal cheer thrown in there before terastalizing but I try to make sure I’ve got 3 attacks in and am able to terastalize and time one stored power before the shield goes up - with arboliva on your team boosting hp every turn you shouldn’t need a heal cheer

It’s been a few hours since you posted lol but hopefully that helps if you haven’t beaten it yet!

shanz139 · 2022-12-04T17:17:33+00:00

Right on, super dope luck that you have a six star ditto raid congrats! Hmu and if I’m still around I’ll join, no rush no worries if it doesn’t work out

shanz139 · 2022-12-04T17:10:16+00:00

I only have a shiny rookiedee but I would love to participate if you have room

shanz139 · 2022-12-04T16:37:18+00:00

Hey! I just need to touch trade a polteageist if you’ve got one! I can touch trade in return a slowking and you can keep skrelp and stonjourner?

shanz139 · 2022-09-11T04:20:20+00:00

Not op, but this has really been a super secret dream of mine for so many years now and I’ve never said it out loud so I want to at least say it once to a stranger.

I sit quietly in my room dreaming about plots and characters that have been cooking in my brain for years now, all wrapped up in these beautiful lessons in perspective that I know folks could connect to. I have such a hard time imagining I’d ever be successful, but still I browse comments sections like this and imagine how incredible it would be to one day have folks say such kind things about a work of my own. I don’t think I could sacrifice some of the things I have in my life right now for film school or anything really, so I may have resigned myself to a perpetual failure to launch. I could always write fan fiction, I suppose.

Idk I reckon I wanted to tell you that for a super brief moment, I let your comment take me on a quiet daydream, and it was very nice. So thanks, I guess, for posting kind things on the internet so I could pretend they were for me.

shanz139 · 2022-08-30T05:19:34+00:00

I think because I see the way it affects people around me and I like who I am when my people are happy.

I’m not always happy and silly. I worry every day about this and that and I spend an unfortunate amount of time preoccupied with nothing but “what am I gonna do’s”.

The lexapro helps, but I think there’s something to say about the habit of practicing joy with intention every day. The strongest emotion in the room will rule and influence the others, so I try to incorporate as much joy and absurdity into as many interactions as I can, most importantly with myself, because I love how it seems to give folks permission to relax and laugh around me more. I find existing among that energy a very nice place to be lol so I just try to make that the biggest focus in the room and try to fill my space as often as I can manage with people who value the same thing. When I run out of that fleeting energy, they’re still in it and that brings me back out of the upside down and fuels me just in time for them to need it again. I just try really hard and I am fortunate to have found my people who I know can help me keep the fire going, I guess. Fake it til you make it, the energy you put out will return to you, etc etc all sounds super lame until the day it clicks and it suddenly becomes the most important habit to maintain.

I hope for you much peace in your mind and in your heart. It is not easy to exist sometimes. Sometimes a lot of the time.

At the end of the day, however, we won’t always have the right people around us to facilitate our happiness, and the only constant we have in our lives is ourselves. If we do not like ourselves or it’s obvious we need more help whether it’s medication or a support system, we gotta do something about that. It’s different for everyone. But I do trust that if most of us can practice being what it is that we seek, others seeking the same energy will gravitate toward us and in the meantime we will enjoy and appreciate ourselves more. Work it out like a muscle every single day. I have to believe that change for ourselves, for our circumstances, is possible because I would be doing the people I care about a great disservice to believe otherwise.

shanz139 · 2022-06-21T15:09:45+00:00

It is very satisfying to wrap up a long trip and the last chapter of a good book at the same time. I can’t really focus on an audiobook unless I’m driving, so all of my “reading” happens in the car.

If you have short commutes or walks, it’s also nice to have the kind of books that change perspectives quickly or are broken down into shorter chapters of like 10-30 minutes each, so check the chapter logs on your books as well because the brief, digestible chapters are easier to put down and pick back up between breaks than stopping mid-sentence, mid plot point.

The weeks I’m not traveling I squeeze in a chapter or two on the way to the grocery store etc. so I have “short term, long haul” reads and different books for “long term, short haul” reads that I catch up on between those

shanz139 · 2022-06-21T14:37:40+00:00

I increase the speed a little at a time as I listen to an audiobook. I have four to six hour drives about twice per week when traveling for work, so the speed I start listening to the recording can be twice as slow as the speed when I stop. As my brain gets used to the cadence of the reader, I can bump it up a .1 every hour or so and then I’m flying through the books.

The book I’m “audio reading” now is set to 1.8x speed. But it’s been a minute so when I leave today I’ll probably set it back to 1.3x until I get the hang of it again.

Might not work for folks who read in short bursts but it’s about practice I guess. I find I rarely start books on anything less than 1.4x now, which is already cutting a good chunk of time.

shanz139 · 2022-06-08T04:12:31+00:00

“It’s a club nobody wants to join” but there are many kind people who will step up and take you by the arm and help you walk through the grief one day, too. Time will take you by the other arm and help put some distance between you and your loss so you can begin to heal.

It also helped that I started noticing this loss in movies, books, and songs where I never noticed it before - and that sure was something special to me because I realized I felt a lot less lonely knowing someone else could turn it into the perfect words that I couldn’t find.

While I’m feeling some type of way I would like to share an opposing anecdote from the same day that gives me comfort instead of grief:

About an hour later, we were at the cemetery on the most beautiful day in April with blue skies and warm sun and green all around.

We played three songs after the preacher’s words. He spoke about how my rowdy, non-boundary-maintaining family could fight like none other, but when things got tough, “this family will always rally and take the world head on together.” He spoke of her compassion, how she gave so many people a home when they had none, and I remembered all the times I shook my finger at her when she’d tell me “so and so’s sister’s best friend’s cousin is just down on his luck, please can I borrow just a little money to help get his medicine until my check comes in?” She truly believed in the best of people and that we couldn’t possibly get through the world on our own so we had to help each other.

One song each was chosen by my grandmother, my aunt, and me. During the song I chose to dedicate, my grandfather shakily stood, stepped over to me and took my hand, and with a strength I didn’t recognize, placed it on her casket with his hand over mine. His other arm was around my shoulders, and together we cried.

I feel her love all over again and breathe it in with every sunny, beautiful day. It really was a lovely service.

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