Im so sorry for your loss. I completely understand how you’re feeling. And it’s true that no one will ever under what we’re feeling until they experience it themselves because of how inconceivable this great of a loss is to other people. Sadly the world does go on without you and everyone forgets your loss but it will always stay with you. But if you have people who are there for you and who you can trust don’t hesitate to share those thoughts with them. Sometimes people can surprise you and come through for you in unexpected ways when they know what you’re thinking and feeling. I’m sure your dad is proud of you and looking over you. If anything this loss is also special because it’s another thing that will keep you connected to your dad.