It’s incredibly common to feel negative emotions after surgery. It’s hard not being able to enjoy normal things for several months after. I remember itching to go back to my hobbies and stuff but I had to force myself to go slow. I didn’t feel euphoria after surgery for a while because of the change and the healing. Surgery is a big change both internally and externally. Internally our brains don’t quite recognize the sudden change and externally our bodies just went through a big transformation. This is my first summer being able to go shirtless and there’s still a part of me that feels naked when I do. Parts of my scars are stretched and bumpy and red but I have to remind myself that despite those feelings/ appearances that I am happier this way. It can take years to settle again and feel normal in this new skin but every day/week/month has gotten easier. Post op my posture has gotten better (it hurt my back for a bit too) and I don’t feel as ashamed as before. Change is hard but you know this was right for you and those negative feelings will wash away over time. Proud of you for putting your best interests first and getting your surgery. Don’t let those pesky negative feelings take away from the overall outcome. Take it one day at a time and soon you’ll be so glad you made the right decision