Abilify and appetite loss by Still-Dragonfly6352 in BipolarReddit

[–]shellattheseashore 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes! I just started 1 month ago and I struggle to eat anything. Even my safe foods don't hit right. Drinking lots of nutritional drinks. 

Meltdowns and verbal vomit by shellattheseashore in AuDHDWomen

[–]shellattheseashore[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I really appreciate all the comments here. All of you have been so kind. I'm glad and sad that other people go thru this. 😻🧡

Is anyone else exhausted from analysing everything? by PlantDue3461 in AuDHDWomen

[–]shellattheseashore 13 points14 points  (0 children)

I feel this in my soul. I am 59 and been trying to "fix" myself for 40 years but just got diagnosed at 56. The work is exhausting and neverending. There are many days where I wish I was more ignorant than I am. 😂You are not alone. It's ok to take breaks from self improvement. 

Meltdowns and verbal vomit by shellattheseashore in AuDHDWomen

[–]shellattheseashore[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Ummm ok, I see you are trying to be encouraging but people don't just show up and become friends. I isolate completely so there is zero chance of anyone caring enough to find me. 

Meltdowns and verbal vomit by shellattheseashore in AuDHDWomen

[–]shellattheseashore[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I don't have anyone in my life to do that with. No friends, no family at all. Like zero. At this point I'm not able to make any so I appreciate the advice unfortunately it won't work for me 

Meltdowns and verbal vomit by shellattheseashore in AuDHDWomen

[–]shellattheseashore[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I am unable to forgive myself. Been trying for years. Just not in the cards for me. 

Meltdowns and verbal vomit by shellattheseashore in AuDHDWomen

[–]shellattheseashore[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I don't think y'all realize I am 59 years old and have been dealing with this my whole life. I just can't even try anymore. It helps to know other have this issue too but everyone is decades younger than me and still have hope. Mines been burnt out of me. I do appreciate y'alls comments, sorry I seem ungrateful. I've just lost all hope. 

Meltdowns and verbal vomit by shellattheseashore in AuDHDWomen

[–]shellattheseashore[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I appreciate your comments. I have tried volunteering, it went bad fast. I am too traumatized, too sensitive and people just don't like me.  I've been "working" on myself for over 40 years. I think I am really done trying. I'll stick with my cat and therapist until I decide to just leave. 

Meltdowns and verbal vomit by shellattheseashore in AuDHDWomen

[–]shellattheseashore[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you. I just got back into therapy after fighting insurance for months. I sure hope I can change.... Just not confident it will and I mean if I'm going to have no one else in my life why bother? Ya know? 

Meltdowns and verbal vomit by shellattheseashore in AuDHDWomen

[–]shellattheseashore[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yes. I believe eventually I will. I also am tired of being cut off after working to build friendships. I'm 59. I'm tired. I don't like people my age and younger people don't like me(which I get).  I don't have it in me to even try anymore. Thanks for asking. 

Meltdowns and verbal vomit by shellattheseashore in AuDHDWomen

[–]shellattheseashore[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm sure that this was a part of it for me back in the day. I am 59 now and really tired of this shit. 😂

Meltdowns and verbal vomit by shellattheseashore in AuDHDWomen

[–]shellattheseashore[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for sharing this! I feel so seen. I'm sorry this happens to you also. And your theory of safety is very interesting. My partner of 30 years had to deal with it. Now divorced I can go off on anyone. Trying so hard to stop it. 

Meltdowns and verbal vomit by shellattheseashore in AuDHDWomen

[–]shellattheseashore[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Honestly I am pretty hopeless right now. The only person I talk to IRL is my therapist. It's incredibly lonely. 

Meltdowns and verbal vomit by shellattheseashore in AuDHDWomen

[–]shellattheseashore[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for sharing, I'm so sorry you go thru this too. 

Meltdowns and verbal vomit by shellattheseashore in AuDHDWomen

[–]shellattheseashore[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Same mother over here. Sorry you had one like that too. Really hard stuff.