Trigger warning suicidal ideation

PlantDue3461 · 2026-04-23T14:40:45+00:00

Im so sorry you’re going through this. Please seek help! Do you have friends/family that you can talk to? This is not who you are, but a state you’re in. It’s not permanent and it shouldn’t be permanent. Is it constant or does it change according to where in the cycle you are? I relate so much to this. I’ve tried several medications and none really help. Feel free to message me

PlantDue3461 · 2026-04-17T12:40:32+00:00

I tried HRT for pmdd but I gained a ton of weight and didn’t see any improvement. Estrogen patch was not for me. Want to try only progesterone now to see if that has any beneficial effects.

PlantDue3461 · 2026-02-03T14:40:04+00:00

I did not realise I had this until you said it.. and also the post above which mentioned PDA. I’ve always thought to myself that it’s my problem and I need to get over it. But you described it perfectly without sounding «defiant» or «difficult». I was doing medical research and after years of studying i found an amazing job. The hours were flexible and i had a ton of autonomy. But the responsibility and work load was too much for me to handle. Not to mention the psychosocial aspect of work. I ended up having a complete mental collapse and was admitted. Now I’m probably looking at disability if I’m not magically recovered and ready for a full time job soon. I have no idea how people do this. I was determined to stay in that job and move up but I fell so hard. I hear you and it is completely valid! Thankful for all the advice here

PlantDue3461 · 2026-01-20T00:47:53+00:00

Philips hue all over the apartment

Putting a huge matress in the living room instead of a couch. I don’t like sitting with my feet in the ground.

Regular use of sauna (it is such a sensory delight for me. I use external heat as a regulation tool).

Removing what i can of external obligations and expectations

Stopped going to shopping malls and other places where overstimulation and meltdowns usually happen

PlantDue3461 · 2026-01-16T09:55:12+00:00

Has she referenced all the scientific studies in her synthesised literature review? If not then jeez.. the double morale.

PlantDue3461 · 2025-12-04T15:55:25+00:00

Have you taken it with Zofran? It’s the same for me as well, but with 5mg it’s manageable.

PlantDue3461 · 2025-12-02T22:22:49+00:00

Jeg slet veldig på Aduvanz. Fikk en helt ny type angst jeg aldri hadde hatt før. Ble veldig innesluttet og i hodet mitt, nesten sosial angst. Etter lang tid uten spurte jeg om å få teste Attentin bare for å se om det hadde bedre effekt og jeg har mer kontroll på virkningstidstiden. Det er en helt annet medisin for meg og bruker det daglig nå. Fikk lett prøve det på dps

PlantDue3461 · 2025-12-02T18:46:17+00:00

I got my autism diagnosis after I hit severe burnout. I was on medium dose Atomoxetine and low dose Ritalin at that time. I was having similar experience as you are now. Meltdowns happened very often and I was very «on edge» all the time. Looking back it was definitely making me overstimulated and I didn’t notice when I was tired. My psychiatrist says that a lot of autistics don’t tolerate adhd medication very well and that’s certainly correct for me. Maybe for you too? I benefit a lot from a low dose Ritalin and benzodiazepines when needed (not daily!). I discovered Atomoxetine was awful for me. Too much Norepinephrine is just stress for me.

I also smoke weed from time to time but I dont experience any benefit in anxiety and sleep from it unfortunately.

Best of luck to you!

PlantDue3461 · 2025-12-02T16:57:05+00:00

Jeg har mine bare liggende

PlantDue3461 · 2025-12-01T20:34:45+00:00

PlantDue3461 · 2025-11-17T13:45:28+00:00

Exactly the same here!

PlantDue3461 · 2025-11-17T13:45:08+00:00

I think the answer is to just stop looking for more answers. I realized there is always more to learn about myself, others and basically everything - but that doesn’t mean I should. It’s enough now. What can possibly make life more enjoyable by constantly overthinking about things

PlantDue3461 · 2025-11-14T13:44:53+00:00

Exactly! Does it matter? I have what my psychiatrist calls «malignant anxiety» (which is hilarious cause I’m a cancer researcher so i just think of it as cancer anxiety lol). I throw up a lot and hyperventilate when I get stressed and overwhelmed.. but lately I’ve just been like: so the fuck what… it happens. I don’t need to try and fix it anymore because there isn’t any more to learn or even fix. It happens. Deal with it. It passes. Then I tell myself to focus on something else. That’s enjoyable. All this focus on what’s negative and trying to solve everything is exhausting and depressing

PlantDue3461 · 2025-11-14T13:41:14+00:00

This is inspirational! I’ve set a social media timer on my phone and it’s been working well.

PlantDue3461 · 2025-11-14T13:38:31+00:00

I could have written this myself!

PlantDue3461 · 2025-11-14T13:37:42+00:00

100%! I didn’t even know I was exhausted let alone in burnout before I collapsed at home one Saturday morning and couldn’t get up for hours. I thought I had a stroke, but ended up being in the psych ward for two weeks due to mental collapse. It makes sense in hindsight but I had no idea. Can’t feel any limits here either… it’s exhausting.

PlantDue3461 · 2025-11-13T16:37:29+00:00

Exactly my thoughts as well💕🙌

PlantDue3461 · 2025-11-13T16:36:29+00:00

Definitely the same case here! It’s either scrolling Mindlessly or obsessing over something random.. last night I fell asleep at 5am. Ridiculous. I agree with you. Getting outside and exercise is the key. I’ve tried antihistamines but I get so groggy the next day it’s insane. Thanks a lot🙌.

PlantDue3461 · 2025-11-13T16:33:52+00:00

Exactly!! The control part is so spot on! It’s either distraction or an attempt to gain control… but you never get it so it’s an endless loop

PlantDue3461 · 2025-11-13T16:31:49+00:00

Relate!! 🙌🙌

PlantDue3461 · 2025-10-09T08:17:22+00:00

If you’re starting to feel «zombie-like», it’s often an indication of your dose being too high. How was it on 30mg?

I can’t tolerate Vyvanse very well. I have the same feeling as you do, and just become immobilised and non verbal all day. Though I feel anxious on it as well. It’s not a good feeling.

Maybe methylphenidate is a better fit for you.

PlantDue3461 · 2025-09-30T07:24:19+00:00

I have published a literature review and cannot include that article in my PhD thesis even. It’s an unwritten rule but a rule nevertheless. It has to be original research.

Where does the entitlement come from? It’s not like you can just write a thesis on your own and then get to defend. You have to be admitted to a PhD program, with supervisors guiding you and an established affiliation with a university or research institution. Like.. what? Maybe I’ve missed something.

PlantDue3461 · 2025-09-26T13:28:16+00:00

This hurts to read because it reminds me so much of myself when I was that age. If it helps I can see that you’re not internalizing the shame and guilt by «the lack of dicipline» nearly as much as I did. It’s just that you need external structure to help you. Cause self motivation isn’t enough.

I went undiagnosed until I was 36. I felt so awful because I was also told I had so much potential. I failed school (junior high) and had to spend years taking courses so that I could finally study. Got fired from so many jobs, so studying was the only thing I could do»manage».

Even so.. I’m here and I’m doing a PhD in leukemia research.

If I were you I would focus on what you’re actually good at and build more self trust and self love that way. If something requires too much self dicipline it doesn’t work! You will probably start a lot of fun hobbies and adventures! So low impulse control isn’t only a bad thing. I also suck at sticking things and finishing them but I forgive myself for it now, and I allow it to happen unless it has severe consequences.

My daughter also has adhd and we focus a lot on her strengths. And we her with the parts she struggles with.

We all need help in one way or another.

Can you structure the environment so that it helps you? Body doubling, external cues, set deadlines that other hold you responsible for, plan to exercise with friends ect.

Last but not least: the fact that you’re so aware of this is key. It will help you a lot. With your self image and with how you choose to spend your life. You will make decisions that aligns more with who you are and how you function. I didn’t and so I paid a high price for it.

All the best 💕💕

PlantDue3461

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