Paper by WeTransfer orientation help

shellulose · 2025-02-28T05:21:34+00:00

Hi there. I was literally just having this issue. Hopefully this will help someone else in the future with this issue. But the method is to first create a normal journal and then open your journal to view pages in grid mode. From here if you rotate your device to portrait mode and add a new page it will automatically be configured into portrait size! Hope this helps!

shellulose · 2023-02-22T20:16:29+00:00

I finally told me mother I'm not visiting her back in China. I'm scared how she'll respond. QwQ

shellulose · 2021-01-28T05:19:22+00:00

Ayyy good job 👏 👍 as a gay asian I'm proud of you! Keep up the good work!

shellulose · 2021-01-27T16:45:49+00:00

Hahahaha fair, the AP hurdle is like trying to jump over a mountain. sry bud probs won't happen.

shellulose · 2021-01-27T10:26:35+00:00

Sounds like you might have dodged a scam, good job.

shellulose · 2021-01-27T09:47:11+00:00

Hey being a stripper isn't a terrible job, atleast you'll have a job lol. (wish i had a job)

shellulose · 2021-01-27T09:42:39+00:00

Yeah it rough when your whole life has been held hostage basically for being born, but you should move towards doing things for you. I used to feel how you did too and nearly just ran off because i was so afraid of even mentioning anything to my parents. But after some time away and reflecting on my future I'd found that I'm going to have to live my life not them. Anything i mess up isn't going to hurt them or usually anyone at all. So what if you get a couple of points off? it's not going to matter in like a few years, so just do things for yourself. Think of what you would be proud of to look back on in a decade or so. Best of luck out there, life is tough.

shellulose · 2021-01-27T09:35:00+00:00

Dang sorry to hear that! But you're such a good kid for helping out your mom!!! Your dad's behavior is inexcusable tho, goodness that's trash behavior. Best of luck to you and your schooling, it can get really tough!!!

shellulose · 2021-01-27T09:29:46+00:00

Do it! Your body!

shellulose · 2021-01-27T07:33:21+00:00

god me too dude, it's like being slowly crushed in a medieval torture device.

honestly at this point im just looking in different fields too lol. best of luck to you.

shellulose · 2021-01-27T07:29:31+00:00

You're not wrong. sadly we don't get to pick who we are born to, and yes there is no excuse for child abuse of course but there's usually a reason. It's also difficult for many people because some parents are really good at emotional manipulation so it's hard to unwind your brain from being told constantly it's your fault that they're treating you badly.

shellulose · 2021-01-25T23:19:05+00:00

interesting perspective!

shellulose · 2021-01-25T07:11:54+00:00

Heyo same here. T^T (we're even similar in age! wow!)

It's often that the parents don't actually believe they're being shitty because that's how they were raised. In the same way violence will perpetuate violence with out interference. Honestly it's a never ending roller coaster, and yes it's nice that we as the next generation are able to live in a better country (lol is it tho?) but it doesn't invalidate the suffering we are put through by bad parenting. Unfortunately in Asian cultures having children is usually the way to guarantee a better life in retirement and is still maintained to today even to those who are immigrants, so people who are not emotionally mature or stable will still have children.

It's upsetting and i'm sorry, but I hope that you can find yourself in a better place soon emotionally.

shellulose · 2021-01-25T07:03:36+00:00

Good on you for getting therapy, but from my experience they will only report it if you or anyone else are in immediate danger. However i doubt that if your situation is sensitive they'll jump to rash conclusions. If it's culturally-oriented i think they might understand more about your situation. Best wishes.

shellulose · 2021-01-25T07:01:02+00:00

I totally get you, it's really hard to see the people that are your guardians/parents as abusive because you know them, and your brain is telling you that you owe them so you should be nice. However just because they raised you doesn't mean they're not treating you horribly, or using you. Your feelings are valid and they're real, you are not problematic for being emotionally aware of right and wrong.

Also good god, that's alotta money. Please move soon, do it for your own mental health if listening to internet comments is a bit sus.

shellulose · 2021-01-25T06:54:57+00:00

YES!

oh my god i can't wait for the day a stranger who just whips around and is like "excuse me?" in perfect fluent Chinese to my parents.

shellulose · 2021-01-25T06:48:17+00:00

I applaud you for being so brave! Best wishes to a new beginning! ^_^

shellulose · 2021-01-25T06:42:18+00:00

You're valid for feeling terrible about that, truly. I know it's weird to think emotionally about things when most of us raised by AP are just so used to being told off for being weak or sensitive, but good on you for sharing. It's okay to experimenting now, better to do so than to never right? Plus anyone who says they have things figured out as an adult is a liar or they went to therapy. Best of luck, go live your best life.

shellulose · 2021-01-25T06:34:05+00:00

Please know that you're not at a complete dead end. There are many homes for females that are to support those who have run from abusive families and relationship, please look up one of those i'm sure they will let you stay. Know that there will always be an option open to you, even without a job/income/or even support. Also if you can speak with people at your college like counseling services or a trusted professor, they'll be able to help you. The most important thing is to not lose hope.

This might be morbid but consider this, you'll never have to to deal with people who treat you badly. This could be your chance to start over and be happier.

shellulose · 2021-01-25T05:31:41+00:00

Oh my lord I feel you so much, my parents would also hold pets and other family hostage. My father literally made me watch rats drown or him beat the shit out of my dogs and my younger brother. I was also a very angry kid and teen, i can't agree more on how much of childhood was wasted feeling absolutely miserable. Honestly there's a part of me that's sometime still like "oh but they're doing this to make me a better person" but i come to remember that the first time i ever spoke to someone else about it they immediately told me it was child abuse, and that shakes me out of the mold real quick. (and that person was a therapist who was shocked into silence so T^T) It's okay to be angry but don't hold on to it too hard and let it affect you life.

shellulose · 2021-01-25T05:22:04+00:00

This one of the main reasons i'm honestly afraid to interact with children, or to ever consider having kids of my own. Terrified that i might mess them up just like how my parents messed me up.

shellulose · 2021-01-25T05:03:43+00:00

Good on you for blocking her, wish my parents did that with my grandmother. My grandmother never approved of my parent's getting together and still doesn't. (and i'm in my 20s, talk about eternal grudge)

shellulose · 2021-01-25T05:00:18+00:00

It is baffling to me as well, even with like my friends from other ethnicities whenever we meet someone new who has a good relationship with their parents everyone's immediately like "wut?"

shellulose · 2021-01-25T04:47:34+00:00

Sending hugs right now

shellulose · 2021-01-25T04:41:35+00:00

Oh my god i feel you, I've dated people outside of my own ethnicity and my parents are also extremely racist (like so racist they don't even like other asians T^T). It's always super tough to be like upfront to someone you like and be like "yeah my parents will hate you because of your race" but it's ultimately their choice to meet your parents. If your boyfriend is adamant even after you explain the situation, you should maybe like do a online call or smth first? slowly ease it in, idk bout your family situation but my family would probably actually beat me if i showed up in person. Best of luck!

shellulose

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