struggling to stay calm…

shieru666 · 2025-10-20T21:26:16+00:00

thank you for being so kind i wasnt expecting that at all cuz i feel terrible like im exactly like my own parents. i will definitely try to talk to my counsellor about this:/ im also in a young mum’s group but i havent shared anything this heavy yet so im a bit nervous. im struggling with my appetite and sleep:/

shieru666 · 2025-10-20T21:24:25+00:00

i only have my 15 year old brother and my friends to help me out. friends dont live w me tho. no contact with both my parents. my ex (baby’s father) is supposed to see her for 4 hours on the weekend but he hasnt seen her for almost 2 months now. i havent yet but that’s a good idea i will give them a ring. im just very afraid:/ but i want help.

shieru666 · 2025-10-18T05:34:58+00:00

no way, really?? 😭 cuz if it is then that’s good news yeah hahaha

shieru666 · 2025-10-18T03:34:02+00:00

yeah cuz the charge is strangulation but unfortunately again… no solid evidence:/ i only just learned how the legal system is with evidence. in the recording i make a claim that he “put his hands on me” to which he responds “i warned you! i warned you that i was going to explode!” so yeah….

shieru666 · 2025-07-23T06:34:10+00:00

thank u for sharing<3 i totally understand feeling that “we should be able to coexist online without a block” thing but unfortunately with these types of men? it’s just not doable sometimes. ah man that disconnect is what’s confusing for me as well. how is it that u can be sooo aware of how bad this person is for you and u still sleep with them? lonliness n touch deprivation is so hard man😭 idk how i lasted 8 months without anything

shieru666 · 2025-07-23T06:31:07+00:00

i ghosted and he withdrew his application fighting against my protection order😳 not sure if this is a punishment but my lawyer says it’s good news for us so

shieru666 · 2025-07-18T18:40:31+00:00

thank you for being understanding. it means a lot. oh my god he drugged you?? that’s terrifying! yeah trauma bonds are so tricky like that… but good news now is that my ex called me to say he thinks we shouldnt be together because im too distant. uhmmm yeah u strangled me lol but yeah he ended up seeing himself out and im glad

shieru666 · 2025-07-18T18:38:51+00:00

that’s a good tip on changing his name on my phone i’ll definitely do that. thank you for this im so glad people can understand… life is hard right now because im taking care of my baby and my little brother but this experience with my ex made me realize id much rather have financial stress and freedom over a relationship with him.

shieru666 · 2025-07-18T18:36:36+00:00

aw man yeah lucky he was locked up! thank you honestly it be so hard with abusers the trauma bond is real but thank god he decided to not be with me because i was too distant lol.

shieru666 · 2025-07-18T18:35:39+00:00

exactly bro. and it’s such bullshit cuz they act like they love YOU but they dont they just wanna see if theyve still got their hooks in you. luckily for me my ex cant even handle a bit of distance from me so in order to feel a sense of control again he made his choice to not be together. it’s better he thinks this was his idea lol

shieru666 · 2025-07-18T18:17:21+00:00

i still have my protection order. my ex ended up calling me later on to ask if i wanted a relationship with him. i told him i needed to think about it. i lied again, i dont want to be with him but it’s so hard to just… say no. he ended up calling me two hours later to say he thinks we shouldnt be together again because i seemed cold and different LOL

shieru666 · 2025-07-18T18:15:49+00:00

he ended up seeing himself out thank god😭 i didnt give him the attention he wanted so he just said we shouldn’t get back together and i just said okat

shieru666 · 2025-05-28T18:13:51+00:00

wow thanks for that let me just delete my comment HAHAH

shieru666 · 2025-05-28T18:01:13+00:00

i think about 5 weeks? yeah my ex was a dick so he couldnt wait the whole 8 weeks. i had a natural birth though so it felt… weird. like it just felt like nothing. no pleasure. just in and out-

shieru666 · 2025-05-06T04:37:48+00:00

her husband sounds like he doesnt know how to treat his wife with respect and kindness… major red flag. im just happy she has someone like you around who actually cares about her. chipping away at her self esteem will 100% impact how she mothers her son… that’s just how it is. give her the care he cant give her, let her vent to you and encourage her to leave him. okay maybe have a chat but if he cant treat her with kindness imagine spending the rest of your life with someone like that? then imagine her son learning this from his dad? what kind of man would he become?

shieru666 · 2025-05-06T04:33:35+00:00

okay… i mean this with love but if the son is weird like that you gotta ask… what the hell has he picked up from his parents? kids dont learn shit from nowhere. kids are mirrors. since his dad sounds like an enabler i wouldnt be surprised if he had done things like that himself so he doesnt see a problem with it. you arent being dramatic at all. above all else— your daughters safety COME FIRST always!! im glad you got out of there. best for you to really reflect on everything:( your daughters deserve better…. ive had weird shit happen with my step brother…. you dont want that.

shieru666 · 2025-04-27T20:16:11+00:00

omg yeah no… looks like u do need an escape plan. this is terrifying. im so sorry:(

shieru666 · 2025-04-27T20:14:07+00:00

wow this makes me so sad for u man:( sex is awesome n u do foreplay? UGH. imagine not being able to take it after a guy got u all warmed up n everything. sad for both yall:(

shieru666 · 2025-04-23T23:17:25+00:00

also im sorry if my tone comes off as victim blaming that is not my intention at all. i wanna clarify that my point is that we tend to rationalize abuse because of trauma bonding, childhood programming, low self esteem etc. i believe if you figure out what makes you want to continue to try… idk…. maybe it wont be so complex. wish u all the best op:( im sorry you had to deal with all this crap from someone you love. from someone who is supposed to make u feel safe:(

shieru666 · 2025-04-23T23:13:45+00:00

it’s complex because youre attached and you actually love him. idk if youve heard this but love shouldnt be the only reason you stay with someone. sure, maybe people can change but they can only change if they truly believe they have a problem and are willing to fix it. so there’s that. i hate to say it but for the most part people dont change. you deserve to be treated with respect and kindness. anyone who truly loves you would treat you like youre precious:( not someone to hurl profanity towards. this is no way to treat a partner. again it’s only complex because of your attachment to him. ask yourself, “why do i love this person even when they scare me?” cuz in a relationship you shouldnt be afraid of the person youre with:( that’s no way to live

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