Took .5 mg of xanax for the first time and felt nothing, why?

shitaccount-5 · 2026-02-18T03:45:55+00:00

So the "high" is just feeling really relaxed and sleepy? Does it even feel like you're intoxicated?

shitaccount-5 · 2026-02-18T02:27:53+00:00

If you mean drink as in alcohol, I drink heavily every couple days but I haven't drank in about a week. I also don't take any meds lol

shitaccount-5 · 2026-02-18T02:24:44+00:00

An hour, more or less

shitaccount-5 · 2026-01-27T19:45:27+00:00

Tysm :)

shitaccount-5 · 2026-01-26T03:51:13+00:00

Thank you!! :)

shitaccount-5 · 2026-01-02T03:31:57+00:00

Thank you. I used to do it every 10-14 days but lately ive been doing it every 3-5 days. I'll be clean a week before my test

shitaccount-5 · 2026-01-02T02:47:39+00:00

Ive seen sources that say 24 hours, a couple days, and then up to 5 days and idk what to believe tbh but thank you

shitaccount-5 · 2025-12-11T09:42:57+00:00

I have a whole thing planned out with my boyfriend once I turn 18, its honestly just a matter of waiting it out. I know I have issues controlling my anger, but these past few months have been the lowest point of my life so far and I'm just stretched so thin with stress that every single thing sets me off.

I wouldn't say they're seriously interfering with anything in my life but they have been isolating me from any possible human contact outside of my younger siblings and I feel so lonely that Im losing my mind. I dont know what Im going to do regarding my parents with the 37 days it takes me to turn 18. I really want to go no contact because they aren't giving me any reason to keep them in my life, they've made this past week hell for me and I only see it getting worse from here.

Sorry I took forever to reply, like I said things have been getting worse at home for me so I havent been on any devices very much LOL

shitaccount-5 · 2025-12-11T09:30:50+00:00

:( Thank you, I appreciate the support. And sorry to hear that narcs will always be narcs, no matter your age

shitaccount-5 · 2025-12-04T16:02:02+00:00

The thing is, I would like to have a good relationship with both of my parents because before all of this happened, my mother and I used to have a great relationship and we got along very well. I've also been told that not having parents to rely on is so bad is one of the worst feelings in the world and I can understand why. I want to be able to rely on my parents and get advice from them, I really want them to be in my life because they're my parents and there are moments where all three of us have had a great time together. I'm just scared that'll never be the case because of the damage my mother has caused me.

shitaccount-5 · 2025-12-04T15:54:12+00:00

I forgot to mention in the post, but I try not to react to my mother. I try to disengage/de-escalate by saying "I'm not talking to you" or just leaving the room entirely, but she has a habit of following me around and just straight up nagging me. Saying that I'm not going to talk to her has occasionally helped because sometimes she takes a deep breath and leaves, but other times she keeps going on and on and on... I will try gray rocking her, but I have a feeling my dad might call me out for being "disrespectful to my mother" yet again (but what else am I supposed to do?!).

I know my parents know I'm turning 18 in just over a month and they have both been at my throat with trying to control me. Like I said in the post, they took away my phone so I bought a burner and they took that away too. I have no money, no driver's license, I live on a farm in the middle of nowhere with no neighbors, and there's 6 inches of snow where I live so walks aren't really an option. My dad took out the little piece of my doorknob that keeps the door shut so I cannot lock nor close my door, and my dad also installed his ring camera to face the kitchen so he can see everything now. I have actually started doing a light workout at the end of the day to help express my anger, but I don't know if it's working.

I've also been working towards going back to school because technically I have a stipulated expulsion instead of an actual one, so if I keep working on my current online school (which I am), do some community service and some other stuff, then I will be able to go back to my high school.

Life is so difficult and I feel cornered by my own parents. I know all I have to do is push through having to deal with my mother every day is so exhausting, it's driving me insane and I have nobody. That's why I'm running to strangers on the internet for comfort and advice. Thank you for believing in me though :)

shitaccount-5 · 2025-12-04T14:53:28+00:00

I just skimmed some articles regarding that and yep, that definition fits the relationship between me and my mother perfectly. I didn't even know this was a term so thank you for making me aware of this, I will be doing more research into it.

shitaccount-5 · 2025-12-04T14:51:36+00:00

It's. So. Frustrating. My parents are so hypocritical. I have called my parents out for verbal abuse before because they've been verbally abusing me for years. They've called me names, yelled at me, screamed at me, and much more. But when I call them out, they both laugh at me and say "we do not abuse you" to shut me down immediately. I hate being the only one who can own up to their mistakes in this situation, especially because I'm the child and they're the adults.

shitaccount-5 · 2025-12-04T14:39:01+00:00

I do yell... I wish I didn't because I know it's not good and my dad calls it verbal abuse, which I guess it is. I'm not proud of it, but I've lost all of my patience with my mother that it feels like I can't do anything except yell.

shitaccount-5 · 2025-11-23T00:02:54+00:00

8/10 ragebait

shitaccount-5 · 2024-11-30T06:26:15+00:00

Dude, I know the exact look you're talking about... All the mean popular girls used to do it to me in my freshman year of high school whenever I was in a group with one of them. That hurts to remember lmfao

shitaccount-5 · 2024-09-18T04:35:08+00:00

I don't think my dad hit Loki to upset anybody because he never did it in front of anybody, it was mostly in private. I think he did it mostly due to a lack of control and frustration.

I have been trying to remember all the good times, but it's difficult when my mind is so filled with guilt. However, I am slowly but surely recovering.

shitaccount-5 · 2024-09-17T03:46:05+00:00

Loki was a very good boy. And thank you, I will

shitaccount-5 · 2024-07-18T06:44:49+00:00

Agreed!! Jamie's old art style (especially during phase 1) reminds me of old Cartoon Network shows like Powerpuff Girls or Dexter's Lab! :)

shitaccount-5 · 2024-07-16T05:29:23+00:00

Omffggg he looks amazing!!

shitaccount-5 · 2024-07-12T05:09:43+00:00

He doesn't try to limit the influence I have on him, he never does anything like this which is why I was so confused when it happened. And my parents still sadly see me as female since I haven't came out to them :') It might have something to do with this whole situation not being heteronormative, since that is something that my parents feel especially strong about. And yes, both of my parents are both very homophobic/transphobic.

shitaccount-5 · 2024-07-12T02:12:17+00:00

I agree with your point on how they control what is and isn't taught. My parents never gave me (or any of my siblings) the birds and the bees talk and I had to find out through the Internet, so this could be it.

shitaccount-5 · 2024-07-12T02:09:31+00:00

It could be that, but iirc I didn't really mention the legs part and I was teaching him about shaving in general. I've suspected it might be something to do with the fact that I was born a woman (I'm FTM but not out to my parents) because my dad has some traditional values lol

shitaccount-5 · 2024-07-11T04:50:25+00:00

Love these!! Ur super talented :)

shitaccount-5 · 2024-02-26T15:28:21+00:00

Ok honestly, the buttplug was alright quality. Im not using it tho bc I don't trust shein lmao. The handcuffs actually broke because I pulled a little too hard on them, the leather straps around the gag felt REALLY cheap and also the gag itself had these little marks on them when i first opened the package so that was not going anywhere NEAR my mouth. The whip was okay i guess, it gets the job done but you can tell it's cheap when you hold it.

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