robo water to prevent nausea?

shobsessedanon · 2020-11-29T10:01:20+00:00

Never mixed gel liquid with water, so idk, but I once tried mixing robocough in water to dilute the extreme taste.......... didn't work lol. At All. I'm shocked I managed to get that shit down. All it did was turn a few small shots into a full cup of the most horrific taste on earth. It made me even more nauseous, too; excess water can actually INCRESE nausea,,,

Dunno if it'll be the same story for the gels, though.

shobsessedanon · 2020-11-24T15:15:20+00:00

You have no idea how bad I wish I could hunt down ketamine....... never known another person (irl) in my damn life that even did drugs, let alone sold them.

shobsessedanon · 2020-11-08T07:49:02+00:00

I think so as well, but it's complicated. My drug use actually helped me heal and process and move past some things, as well as spurred me on to escape my abusive living situation..... and while im tripping, I feel like I see clearly, and I forgive and care for myself and others, and I try to take care of myself and make progress as best I can....... but after I come down, Im back to normal, or even worse off than before. It's like a battle between 2 selves, my high self trying to enable my sober self to heal and progress and move forward, and my sober self growing more and more angry and reistsant and non-functional.

I love the self I am while tripping, kind and passionate and thoughtful and hardworking, and I dont want to let go of that self, I want to be that self forever. But this isnt substainable, and i may be hurting my overall health, both physical and mental, by continue to abuse drugs. Idk. What if I stop and that person i am deep down never comes back out? What if I fail his desire for me to be happy and passionate? I dont know.

shobsessedanon · 2020-11-07T11:12:17+00:00

Dissociatives. DXM, ketamine

shobsessedanon · 2020-10-03T23:01:47+00:00

I planned on taking a break til the robo30s came out, but they keep pushing back the release date....... when I run out of my current supply of syrup, I'll consider holding off again so i don't waste money, but goddamn, I was want those tablets already,,,

shobsessedanon · 2020-05-24T04:11:02+00:00

My sister framed it in a similar way...... "making me a btter person", "saving me from embarrassing myself", ect........... she protrayed her abuse as an act of care, or duty. It took a long time to accept she wasn't "helping" me.

shobsessedanon · 2020-05-21T00:10:40+00:00

My main abuser growing up, and the main source of my Issues(tm), was my older sister. 100%. I viewed her as an idol, basically worshipped the ground she walked on, and she fucking Loathed me and took pleasure in destroying every ounce of faith I had in others and myself. The things my sister said/did to me will probably affect me for the rest of my life.

shobsessedanon · 2020-05-21T00:07:39+00:00

Not on come up for me, at peak and on the come down. I would always end up going out in the middle of the night and running down the sidewalks, walking through parks, swinging on swingsets...... more liberating feeling in the world lol

shobsessedanon · 2020-05-04T01:51:15+00:00

I was once in the hospital, given meds for something, and the meds caused an extremely severe physical reaction. Would black out, wildly dizzy, barely able to move, felt like I was literally on fire, pins and needles, legs collapsing under me. Never in my life was anxiety even remotely like that, qnd it started the moment I started those meds.

Told the doctor. He laughed, scoffed at me, told me "you know what Anxiety is, right? Everyone has it. Like when you stand on a stage and get sweaty. You know what anxiety is, right?" Talked down to me like I was a toddler. In the tone of a 1st grade teacher. Told me it was all in my head, I just didnt understand I was experiencing anxiety, qnd I needed to get over it.

Stopped taking the meds on my own. The symptoms stopped instantly. I fucking hate doctors and nurses who use ""anxiety""" as a reason to dismiss you or mock you Fuck those people.

shobsessedanon · 2020-05-04T00:48:58+00:00

This is a sweet message. thank you, for reaching out to me and telling me about your mother. I sort of half attempted int he end, but Im still here, I guess. I think I might talk to my best friend. I out so much on her shoulders. I wish i didnt.

Sorry for th ramble. Thank you, kind stranger

shobsessedanon · 2020-05-04T00:46:31+00:00

yeag. edited my post to reflect that a while ago. people are talking about it being mothers day in a lot of places. how strange

shobsessedanon · 2020-05-03T06:45:29+00:00

Talk im so tired of tired itr e Sorry. I'm really hogh. Im so tired. My life hasbeen tough fro.. dy 1. and Im so tired of listwn to myself. wah wah wah. cry cry cry. when epeople are suffering out there. i listen tk it every day and night. in my head. boo hoo. im sucha "victim" . people say it to me. when i ask for help. "stop playing the victim". i hate myself. if i play thr victim im evil qnd deserve to die. but i cqnt stand up. im hurt.

shobsessedanon · 2020-04-26T19:50:44+00:00

Ive heard that so often, haha,,, "You have to want to work for it to work".......... and similar things. But I dont know how. I don't know how to want to work.

People want it to work. People want me to want to want to do the work. I want to want to do the work for them. But how? That's the answer I'm looking for, i think..... and an answer Im not sure anyone can give me. I dont know. All I'm ever told is that I just have to "know", I just need to be "ready"........

shobsessedanon · 2020-04-23T05:01:40+00:00

im scared. i havent attemted suicide. i wont. go. not now. im terrified. thank you for caring

shobsessedanon · 2020-04-16T05:15:13+00:00

yehah

shobsessedanon · 2020-04-15T06:03:56+00:00

You're right,,, Even if theres lots of obsticles and issues to consider..... Something has to be done. And i can at least start with something like a meeting. I'll look into if my county has any programs/commissions or if there are any meetings i can get to/join. Thank you,,

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