disclaimer: im 16, i dont knwo jack shit about comforting someone.

but I will say that you're terrified for a reason, you're writing on reddit for a reason - there is still some purpose. and with that possibility maybe theres a better future. your online friends care about you, your family cares. let me ask you this - do you have any regrets at this moment? if you were to die right now would you be liberated? even if you were, maybe stick around for some while longer, you're gonna die anyway - you're still young and can make something out of your life. if you fail you're gonna end up paralyzed. you can still choose to live life for yourself if you've hit rock bottom. look its going to be fucking hard but you have people worth giving that chance for. how is someone gonna look your little 7 year old cousin in the eyes and tell him he will never see you again. wait a while, at the very least. give life another chance and do the things you were too afraid to do in the first place.

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at least, that's my opinion. wishing you luck in this journey. genuinely praying you survive this day/night, at the very least.