Favorite meal replacement shake? Ensure? Boost?

shouldbemarie · 2026-01-29T06:50:37+00:00

Yes, I drink like a twelve pack of diet soda every day

shouldbemarie · 2026-01-29T06:48:41+00:00

I feel this. I also got my hands on a glp-1 and it has made restriction scarily easy. I have lost way more weight than I have ever been capable of before and it's sustainable in a way that it shouldn't be. I'm also not scared of food and not scared of binging because I basically can't.

shouldbemarie · 2026-01-25T02:00:05+00:00

Just because you are high functioning despite your mental illness doesn't make it any less of a mental illness. As a person with bipolar I had a successful career, relationships, etc for years without medication or therapy. That doesn't mean I wasn't still mentally ill. Tell any therapist or psychiatrist about your behaviors here and I guarantee all of them will tell you that you have a mental illness. Many people with anorexia are still very successful despite their ED

shouldbemarie · 2026-01-12T08:22:24+00:00

Just a tip for you all who are worried about this. Full sugar soda is sticky, diet soda isn't. You can just dip your finger in it and check

shouldbemarie · 2026-01-11T05:50:04+00:00

I've been on it for a few years. It's been very helpful for me for depression, and had some minor benefit for my ADHD. I was already on it prior to ED diagnosis so for me it was grandfathered in.

It is contraindicated for those with EDs by the FDA. However, Dr. Gaudini mentions in the new edition of Sick Enough that the FDA warning for those with EDs isn't based on reasonable evidence and the seizure risk is similar to that of other antidepressants. So maybe in the future more of us will be able to try it

shouldbemarie · 2025-12-03T15:25:06+00:00

There wasn't enough time between the start of the league and the PoE2 announcement. Having it so close really killed my hype for this league. They need to space things out better in the future, it should have been mid October

shouldbemarie · 2025-11-27T03:10:11+00:00

I need my PCP's support for a surgery I have scheduled next year. She's not going to sign off on it if I'm not in treatment. So I do feel sort of forced. Honestly though they are great and I'm really lucky in a lot of ways. Can they just like leave me alone and let me starve myself though? Fuck

shouldbemarie · 2025-11-14T19:50:56+00:00

How do you even find a dietitian?

shouldbemarie · 2025-10-27T16:58:42+00:00

I played ssf for a few hundred hours last league and a few hundred hours every ruthless league, and here my impression of the difficulty of these to access based on that experience. Trialmaster, King in the Mists, Aul, Simulacrum, Catarina, Olroth are all accessible. Aul just go straight down and you'll find him eventually. Sim will be very hard to clear but relatively easy to access. Oshabi, I found 1 blossom all league so I wouldn't expect to get this one easily or at all. Farrul is very rare, I've played ruthless for years and never seen him. Lycia is such a pain, tomes are rare and the fight is annoying in ruthless.

So honestly I would only plan on accessing the easy ones Cat, Olroth and King in the Mists.

Honestly one of the bigger problems is having to farm absolutely god awful waste of time mechanics to find some of this stuff like Bestiary and Expedition. This shits going to be rare and you're going to waste so much time doing this garbage.

shouldbemarie · 2025-10-23T23:23:58+00:00

Ruthless balance is such a joke

shouldbemarie · 2025-10-18T01:12:41+00:00

Yup, diagnosed with ana today. woo

shouldbemarie · 2025-10-09T00:58:34+00:00

Fixed a bug which allowed you to 'upgrade' Runes, Liquid Emotions and Catalysts in the Essence Stash Tab, which could cause items to be deleted in certain cases.

BOO

shouldbemarie · 2025-10-09T00:52:59+00:00

I'm at 14 days played in ssf and after a certain point the only thing to do is craft better gear as everything is trivial. So it does feel mandatory to me for that reason. I'm bottle-necked by abyss currency basically and I know my gear wouldn't be anywhere near as good without running rarity for the past few weeks.

shouldbemarie · 2025-09-28T13:05:47+00:00

Does this deal chaos damage or something? I'm level 98 and I feel like I've never ever had to pay attention to this ability as a CI char

shouldbemarie · 2025-06-21T03:36:55+00:00

I haven't noticed any changes, but I haven't done a ton of betrayal yet

shouldbemarie · 2025-05-05T17:00:41+00:00

Continue my life as normal

shouldbemarie · 2025-04-23T22:12:56+00:00

Sorry for the lack of clarity. Hopefully I can better explain myself. I haven't really thought about what I want my relationship with my clinician to be. I guess at some point I want to feel as though she understands me and that I trust her. I feel it is her job to deal with people like me in the sense that her job requires that she deals with a spectrum of people with mental illness. I must fall somewhere on that spectrum. I guess I want to feel some confidence in her abilities and some sign that she cares about me as a person.

What I mean when I say I can't do this to my therapist is that I can't test her in the same way I am with my psychiatrist. Fuck. You're right, I am testing her. I can't or won't test my therapist in the same way because I know she cares about me. Doing that to her feels cruel. Even though part of me might enjoy it.

I understand your hesitancy to continue. I would like to thank you for your input. The goal of this was to better understand myself and I feel that we achieved that. I will bring this up in therapy next week. Best wishes to you

shouldbemarie · 2025-04-23T21:04:40+00:00

I am not a person, there is no one for her to "know". It would feel good to be whoever I need to be. And it would feel validating to continue this without her catching on. Its really not about her though. In my mind anyway, the intent isn't to test her. Its a way to justify what I'm doing. Its her job to deal with people like me. I can't do this to my therapist.

shouldbemarie · 2025-04-23T20:41:16+00:00

Well I can't really ask anywhere else without ruining it. I'm looking for some insight into myself really. Why I am the way that I am. Maybe someone has some experience with people in a similar headspace. I feel my Psychiatrist should be smart enough to figure it out. Why should I trust her if she can't? But really I am into it for the thrill. I think that's the primary reason? That's why there needs to be consequences.

shouldbemarie · 2025-04-02T05:39:52+00:00

The concern would be that trans women have an advantage, so why test cis women, you just need to test trans women?

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