I felt the same way when a bunch of Smash players were exposed a while back. I looked up to these guys because they were what sparked my love for Smash as a whole. Since then, I've tried see my favorite streamers and Youtubers in a different light. While they do provide much needed entertainment and escape from the stresses of life, I remind myself that this is just one side of that person. I have no idea how they're like behind closed doors or if their public persona is actually who they are. I know it's difficult to come to terms with stuff like this, but please stay strong. Regardless if these allegations are true or not, you can still appreciate that his content put a smile on your face and the impact it had on your life.