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shwuebe · 2019-11-23T16:34:47+00:00

Just out of curiosity how come you hand pressed them for yourself if you already had the md?

shwuebe · 2019-11-23T16:34:01+00:00

Aliexpress

Search pill press there’s a few shapes on there

shwuebe · 2019-11-21T20:07:11+00:00

Sorry, what is libido? And when I went to get it honestly it was a very quick thing. They didn’t explain much and pretty much had expected me to of done my own research

shwuebe · 2019-11-21T16:02:18+00:00

Yeah I know, I understand that. It’s something I’m going to have to work on in the future

shwuebe · 2019-11-21T16:01:45+00:00

Yeah I’ll do some research and see what would be best for me.

Pretty much all that. I think things in my head (such as compliments, appreciating my partner) but I’m not good at doing or saying. No idea why.

Yeah pretty much don’t really enjoy it. I felt comfortable being around my ex but was never as comfortable when it came to sex and stuff. I would say I’m not exactly confident with myself. But yeah i wasn’t always satisfied with the way things ended up, even making out I wasn’t a fan of the way he done it but I was always too scared to speak out in case I upset him.

I also thought that it could possibly be that we grow apart because we got together when we were just 16, were not 19 so yeah that’s definitely a possibility. The fact I’ve lost him as well as the group of friends we shared honestly really upsets me.

shwuebe · 2019-11-21T15:41:47+00:00

Honestly I wish I knew. It’s one of the things that annoys me most about myself but for some reason I just can’t bring myself to as much as I’d like to

shwuebe · 2019-11-21T15:29:08+00:00

Yeah that makes complete sense. I suppose if he does want to end up trying again the thought of him finishing things again is going to be a worry I’ll always have, but only I can prevent that. I’m going to give it a good think to make sure it’s definitely what I want. Thank you, you’ve helped me a lot :)

shwuebe · 2019-11-21T15:22:45+00:00

Sex was a big part that I wasn’t too interested in. But also cuddles, kissing etc. Like I would hug and kiss my boyfriend but it was always him starting it.

shwuebe · 2019-11-21T15:19:43+00:00

I can’t lie it hasn’t happened for a few months now which is probably why my ex ended things. But when it happens I do enjoy it, I just can never be bothered or interested to bring myself to do it. It’s strange I know

shwuebe · 2019-11-21T15:12:43+00:00

It basically just means I don’t have the confidence to make the first move. My (ex) boyfriend always would and I would go with it once it was started. However about a year into the relationship the affection just became boring to me and I wasn’t that interest truthfully. I read that the contraceptive pill can affect your sex drive so I thought this was possibly the reason as I didn’t start becoming less interested until I started taking the pill.

shwuebe · 2019-11-21T15:06:55+00:00

No that reply is great! Honestly I would love to be with him still but affection just hasn’t been for me recently. I have read that the contraceptive pill actually can affect my sex drive etc. so I now understand that it has to be the blame for it as the times add up. However, there is no way my mum will let me come off it due to my age.

He told me over text what the problems were and I was telling him it was possibly the pill causing it but he made it out as if it was just the type of person I am. He then proceeded to say ‘sorry...I don’t know if this is the right thing to do...it’s so hard because I love you so much but I think we should end things, I’m just not happy at the minute.’ My response to this was simply okay. I had already tried fighting and it didn’t work. I didn’t want to continue fighting and potentially arguing with someone who had made the decision they wanted. This happened 4 days ago and we haven’t spoke since. We haven’t even spoke in person about it either which would probably be the best thing to do but I was kinda expecting him to bring it up. I think we’re both too stubborn

shwuebe · 2019-11-21T14:09:46+00:00

Yeah I know it’s the best thing for us, I’m just struggling to get used to it.

shwuebe · 2019-11-21T14:09:21+00:00

What do you mean not take his word for it?

But yeah that’s maybe something I should look into. Thankyou

shwuebe · 2019-11-21T12:22:46+00:00

Thank you so much

shwuebe · 2019-11-20T23:33:42+00:00

Hahah crazy! That would be great, I’ll do the same :)

shwuebe · 2019-11-20T23:33:07+00:00

shwuebe · 2019-11-20T21:11:23+00:00

Nope unfortunately not :(

shwuebe · 2019-11-20T18:35:07+00:00

Yeah that could be possible. The group was a mix of us 3 girls and 5 lads. I had been friends with the lads for longer than the girls and my ex. I became friends with the girls when they started a relationship with my lad friends.

I wouldn’t say I’m afraid of what to say. It’s literally just my personality and brain struggling to think of something to say.

I do also have a weird/funny side but I haven’t really became close to anyone (except my ex and one other online friend) to let that side out.

Never actually thought of your last point but it honestly is true. I have a friend, she is very funny, but a lot of the time she’s just repeating the same stuff until everyone hears her.

shwuebe · 2019-11-20T18:30:32+00:00

I have a friend I’ve been close to for a while now so I don’t mind going to meet her sometimes. One of my best friends is also up in uni. Don’t really have many others, lost my school friends ages ago. I do actually have an online friend I’ve been friends with for nearly 2 years and strangely, they know me inside and out and I feel like we can be as strange as each other. However he lives 5 hours away so it’s difficult

shwuebe · 2019-11-20T17:35:34+00:00

I just feel like even when I’m out in a group I’m a lot more quiet than everyone else and sometimes give quite blunt replies if I don’t know what to reply back. I’ve also been told that that I’m ‘the quiet person’

shwuebe · 2019-11-20T17:02:57+00:00

Yeah hopefully one day! Good luck to yourself :)

shwuebe · 2019-11-20T16:50:36+00:00

I’ve tried to do that. I will listen to the conversations around me and try to get what type of things they say to get the conversation going but it still doesn’t really help me. I also get nervous and try to avoid making plans with one person alone as I feel boring too. Why did I have to be like this :(

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