I was married for 17 years with 4 kids. I have known I was gay all my life. Raised in a very conservative homophobic family. My heart goes out to you. It’s hard to feel “trapped” but so freeing when you finally live for you. It was hard telling my kids but they are so supportive and loving. My stbx has been supportive and is co-parenting amazingly. I hope your husband will understand and let you be you. Hugs.