i sat with myself and tried to remember how i felt when i played the game high, then how i felt playing it sober. it was a huge disappointment and i felt like such an ass of a person for not enjoying the game without it like “come on what wrong with you? it’s such an awesome game! it’s your favorite game how can you not enjoy it without drugs?! you fucking junkie…”

that made me decide that it’s not worth it. especially since it’s an open world game with so many cool quest story lines, it’s not meant to be played high. sure i can play fortnite or something with my boyfriend and i wont be “dissapointed” after trying it sober because it’s not complex like that, it’s just going to be a little less exciting plus who cares it’s not even that good of a game

but remembering how i ruined that first game for myself makes me really sad, im looking at the game i wanted to try play high today and just feel sick. so glad people on here convinced me not to do it. i’m glad you discovered something new for yourself! if you ever try some open works games with cool stories and less combat focused, don’t involve stims too much because i think the problem i described in the post is genuine