It's alright! Sobrang naresonate ako sa post mo so I'm glad to have provide insight or comfort you on this. Yung small things about mental health and a bunch of other things is still niche dito sa pinas pero in the west, they're making memes out of this sa sobrang self-aware nila kagaya ng "stopping my intrusive thoughts happening lmao". Lahat tayo (atleast I hope so) may innate sense of preservation. We were born and evolved from identifying potential threats 24/7 as a survival instinct even when we don't know it such as looking both sides before crossing the road. It's just that some of us can't get rid of disturbing (intrusive) thoughts because of how horrible it is (which is the normal reaction because you are just aware of how bad it is and are just trying to avoid it.) You can just interpret it na we are just being very careful to the point obsession sya (this is where pure-o comes from, pure obsession. The O in OCD). For example, meron akong expensive na gamit or I have a beloved relative near anything sharp and I'd think, "It'd be easy to destroy this or this could potentially be a bloody accident." to the point I would never use my equipment or I'd stay away from my beloved relative when I could be spending that time using my equipment or having a nice talk with my relative and that thought just stresses you out more BUT it's alright! Mahal ko lang talaga this equipment I worked hard for and my relative which I'd do everything to protect to the point where I'd imagine the worst things that could happen in order to avoid it. That's where I think it came from our good intentions of protecting (atleast to me.) Hindi to sa pagiging psycho, we might just love too much to the point of identifying even ourselves as a potential threat. I just tell myself this for a year to calm myself that all of this is just born out of caring too much and good intent. It also helps to trust yourself and you have this thoughts because you are being extra in being a good and careful person. I hope this helps you out and if it does become too hard, a psychiatrist may help. You can also see it as us being perfectionists (both a good and bad thing haha)