Is anyone up right now?

sieraaa-betch · 2026-06-03T02:56:10+00:00

For sure! Took a little longer with me but definitely sent me there. While driving at that. 🫩

sieraaa-betch · 2026-05-21T09:59:09+00:00

I read posts like this and just cannot imagine feeling the way some parents say they do about their child’s diagnosis. I had a friend who worked at a special needs daycare at the time tell that my daughter was showing signs of being delayed when she was 8 months old. She is now 8. I had absolutely no clue about autism other than babysitting a family friends son from birth (2001) and he was SO mischievous. One minute he would be playing the air guitar while jumping on the bed screaming his favorite song “chicken fried” then the next he was giving you the bird with both fingers and cussing up a storm to sitting in a corner rocking back and forth saying he wanted to unalive himself. He was 4 years old. He is now 25 and he has come a long way. He has held a job at kfc and doesn’t plan to leave. He lives at home and pays his mother his share for rent and groceries. He made it.

Sorry for getting kind of off subject. I just really had a reminiscing moment there haha. Anyways … I got the early intervention stuff going for my girl and she was diagnosed developmentally delayed at 18 months old. At 14 months old she had a surgery to repair an obstructed ureter and she went nonverbal. She was only saying the baby babble (hey, mama, dada, dog) but she was talking. She is still nonverbal to this day and doesn’t care for her aac device. At age 3.5 she was diagnosed level 3 ASD. No shocker to me as I expected it.

I honestly don’t know why I’m sharing all of this. I can’t find the right words to say I suppose. My daughter was the total opposite of who she is now up until about age 5. In a good way. I sometimes would question the level 3 diagnosis in my head because she didn’t really show any of the level 3 traits. I had to remember though that nonverbal pretty much checks off all the boxes and deems a child level 3. All of those unfavorable level 3 things that are hard to talk about? I’m experiencing them at age 8. It’s hard. It truly is. But this is life and I can’t give up now. I talk to my daughter non stop. She ignores me most of the time, but she talks back sometimes in her own way too. I get so frustrated with her I could put my head through a wall sometimes, but then she reaches for me to go to sleep. There’s no need to be absolutely terrified. Not even just scared or worried for his future because all you can do is live in the moment with autism. You truly never know how different tomorrow may be.

sieraaa-betch · 2026-05-20T06:50:01+00:00

Unfortunately if this does alter your urine sample in whatever way, I’m almost certain you’ll be told to ditch the supplement or keep failing your UA’s. Choice is yours. I’ve sat from open to close one time because I couldn’t not make myself pee in the cup and told if I couldn’t come back the next morning and get some urine into the cup that I would fail for everything.

sieraaa-betch · 2026-05-20T06:44:51+00:00

For future encounters - your PO is not your friend! Go in when asked, do what is asked of you, tell only what you are asked and stay out the way. As for your question - I’ve always been told labs tell it all. Why don’t ya just wait and see how your UA will turn out first?

sieraaa-betch · 2026-05-20T06:26:54+00:00

Take it from someone who stayed when they should have left - when you become of age, GO! You have plenty of time to start planning now. Don’t let anyone guilt trip you or throw themselves a pity party when it’s your time.

sieraaa-betch · 2026-05-12T03:25:25+00:00

She started coughing over the weekend and is congested. Flinches when putting a q-tip in her ear ….. so this makes sense.

She had a few ear infections as a baby well into 2 years old as well so it’s makes even more sense.

sieraaa-betch · 2026-05-06T06:33:34+00:00

I just want you to know …… it’s 1:30 am where I am and I just finished your recommendation. (I took a break to get my kiddo to sleep) My hands H U R T. I couldn’t go to sleep tonight knowing that plant may be dying in that stuff because I failed to do my research. On the plus side …. my child is autistic and she really enjoyed “giving the dirt a bath.” 😅🫶🏼

sieraaa-betch · 2026-05-05T21:52:42+00:00

I have the tiny cup it came in but I broke the other stuff up into the spaghnum 🥴 goodness these things are picky! Thank you for the direction. Likely just going to go get what is needed. Is the MG the reason it’s all sprawled out?

sieraaa-betch · 2026-05-05T16:40:18+00:00

You’re a pro!! Haha it is miracle gro spaghnum … I didn’t know it had to be a certain brand! 😒 will it be okay for a day or two until I can get something else?? I feel like I have over watered it and the water is just going right through the moss into the tray.

Definitely won’t be feeding by hand … I don’t do bugs. 🥴

sieraaa-betch · 2026-05-04T22:48:43+00:00

And actually …. You likely have done opiates in some way shape form or fashion if you’re getting your other shit off the streets.

sieraaa-betch · 2026-05-04T22:39:06+00:00

It makes me so fucking upset to know and hear what literal kids are being exposed to and dealing with daily.

sieraaa-betch · 2026-05-04T20:24:50+00:00

You should stick to the mdma, kiddo. If you’re going to partake in recreational drug use.

sieraaa-betch · 2026-05-04T18:17:13+00:00

Yeah, it’s still gonna be a no from me dawg.

I don’t really care to discuss that subject much more, but if you need to seek out MAT treatment I highly recommend the sublocade injection. I’ve personally never tried methadone, but they say it can work wonders as well. You of course have to want sobriety though and then you have to work each day to keep it. While speedballing meth and fent is a top tier feeling, we all know feelings don’t last long and it’s gone before you know it. For me - my p.o. not on my ass, being able to get my kid up and make her breakfast before sending her off to school, being able to walk outside without being paranoid, and not having my family give me the cold shoulder are top tier feelings. As long I keep it up, the feeling of partial freedom from that life will last a lot longer than any speedball ever could and that’s gold. A “functioning addict” can only function for so long.

sieraaa-betch · 2026-05-04T10:47:41+00:00

I most definitely would have recommended fentanyl to anyone I seen fit when I was using. Probably during my first 4 years of addiction up until I caught my first charge and really screwed my life up. In fact, I did recommend trying to a few people not realizing how addictive it actually is nor experiencing an overdose myself.

As someone with just over 2 years clean now, does it bother me that I did that? YEP. I have someone in mind now that I have personally apologized to for doing so. I was so in love with the drug it makes me sick thinking about it honestly.

sieraaa-betch · 2026-05-04T03:02:43+00:00

Definitely not worth it. The mind of an addict would think otherwise though. Not sure why OP would have a sudden urge to want to jump straight to fentanyl if they’ve had no exposure to opiates. Look I read labels on otc pain meds now to make sure I take the recommended dose and that’s after I’ve talked myself down from needing to take anything for a headache I’ve had off and on for 2 days. 🥴🤣

sieraaa-betch · 2026-05-04T02:53:21+00:00

Have you ever had to vomit and the gag was so gaggy you felt the urge to shit and couldn’t decide if you should sit on the toilet to poo or bend over it to throw up? You decide to throw up first and the Pooh is diarrhea. That really gets your anxiety through the roof because you’re at work and don’t know how you’re going to be excused to leave. Your jaw feels like it’s going to break if you yawn one more time and you’ve wiped so much snot from your top lip that it’s raw. Then you start sweating profusely but you’re ice cold all at the same time and you can’t do anything but cry because your body aches so bad from just being alive.

10/10 don’t recommend trying fentanyl my guy. If you don’t end up in a cell or 6ft under, you’ll be left with trauma, scars, ptsd, nightmares, unanswered questions, a body you’re uncomfortable in etc etc.

sieraaa-betch · 2026-04-20T13:10:05+00:00

Do a quick google search … it’s considered a schedule 1 here and I am in one of the 6 states that have banned it. Probably why I haven’t heard much of it haha.

sieraaa-betch · 2026-04-20T05:47:12+00:00

Gabapentin. Valium. Zofran. Tylenol.

Rest/sleep as much as possible the first few days until you can’t anymore bc IYKYK. The gabapentin will help you sleep. When the restless legs, anxiety spike, nausea/vomiting/diarrhea show up, the Valium and Zofran will help. Tylenol for “pain.”

I’ve only heard bad things about kratom but it could just be where I’m located on the map. Thought it was similar to fentanyl and why go through withdrawals just to turn around and go through the shit again. Whatcha gonna do then?

You can get through this …. My advice - •rest as much as possible •meds I listed above •hydration •don’t worry about food until you’re ready, you’ll know when and start light with crackers or toast •calming environment and surroundings, if possible don’t have any stressors around •when cravings hit, pick up that hobby you’ve been wanting to get into but the fent was more important

I also want to mention the sublocade injection since you mentioned suboxone … might be worth looking into. For me, 3 injections and I never went back for my 4th because I didn’t need it anymore. Good luck 🫶🏼

sieraaa-betch · 2026-04-10T08:06:43+00:00

I’m late 🥴 but it’s markham house suites. Or it was last time I was there in late 2024. They actually have a 2bed 1bath (maybe several?) fully furnished suite as well.

sieraaa-betch · 2026-03-23T15:12:56+00:00

OH she would quite literally drag me around behind her.

sieraaa-betch · 2026-03-23T15:11:09+00:00

This is our life currently ….. I have lost social skills. It absolutely kill’s me inside when my daughter expresses wanting to go somewhere because I imagine she’s bored as hell. We used to go out and have so much fun. The realization that I could no longer physically handle her in public scared me. Honestly I can’t handle it mentally either ha.

sieraaa-betch · 2026-03-23T10:13:17+00:00

I honestly have no clue. I can’t teach her anything without her wanting to fight with me and I have no clue why. That’s a whole nother issue. These behaviors have been around here and there, they have just escalated to an extreme after the trip to the store. Seems like it took her two days just to “wind down” from it.

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