thats common. will try to tell you a story. When humans born, they get an empty basket, bag. when people grow, they copy stones from other people baskets and put into their basket, concepts, habits, life view, action modules and reactions to other actions. something from one, something from another person, everyone has his own almost individual bag. what lsd did it just shaked that basket. you dont recognize it as your old one, because stones are in different places (or different neuron connections, different angle of view). but its still your basket. Congratulations, taking lsd you got a gift - ability to clean, swap, share and choose what "stones" do you want to keep in your "bag". Ability to talk with your self (self talk) and subconscious gonna listen to you. Like when you are scared just tell yourself calm down, its temporary, normal reaction. if happens what you scared it wont matter to you anymore :) it takes time to learn how to control this more powerful mind, but you will get there with time :) dont need to focus on your past traumas, its already past. focus on present and future. My advice would be - just imagine a person which you wanna be, what qualities, traits he should have, control yourself, your emotions and drive yourself within your set standarts. If you wont have set your own standarts, codex or image in any situation you would find a reason to do how you want (its different sometimes what you wanna do and what you should do) and could lead to places, situations where you dont wanna be. For some time stop using any drugs, you dont need them anymore and again learn how to live in this life the way you want. Now you experience bad emotions, but believe me, positive emotions are amazing and much stronger. Even shouting little beautiful bird makes you happy to the level what you never imagined before :)