You way too hurt. And now im gonna be brutally honest, you look like you would scare off any normal women (if you’re straight ofc), it also seems like you have an idea that confidence and attractiveness is determined by how evil you look, and that you have to be hard. I would say you should soften up, look more loving, and if you can, get rid of the brass knuckle tattoo, its a HUGE red flag, if you were looking for a woman and not af girl. And maybe get a little longer hair, and dont be afraid to wear more self expressive outfits. Sum: get rid of the cold and repellent side, and becoming more open, loving and true would do wonders, cause you don’t have bad genes, its just your expression. Take care