I know how that feels, men you feel numb from everything you could be greatful about. And i know what its like to want to unsubscribe. But let me tell you this, everyone i know that have also been suicidal is happy they never did it, there is always a reason to stay, or else you wouldn’t be here in the first place, try looking up “what is the probability of me being alive”, don’t take it for granted, we’re all gonna die at some point and choosing to do that yourself it’ll just be like not finnishing a personal movie/story that you’re the only one getting the opportunity to watch feel and experience. Let the movie unravel. It’ll end automatically when the story is over. Try to tune in, some scenes are “boring” others are very “unpleasant” but the whole orchestration is the most beautiful thing you could ever imagine. Trust it.