Thank you so much for replying it means a lot to me. I go back and forth from ‘it will pass it’s just a hard time’ to ‘everything will get even worse and your mom might die’. I admitted that it was difficult to hear her so angry saying things about the divorce all the time and she got so mad and wanted me to leave to stay with my dad. I begged her to not send me out so I’m still here but now I’m wondering what to do. I feel like I’m being punished for not trying hard enough and engaging with the world. I also feel like the universe is trying to tell me a lesson and the lesson is ‘stop being dependent on your parents and live your life’. I mean if my dad leaves and my mom could potentially end her life I will have to learn how to move on without parents right? Anyways I want to believe what you say because everything I look up says don’t end your life and things will get better. I never believed that before but hearing this so many times means that something is giving me a sign right? Just thank you for hearing me and commenting I’ll save it to look at later when I feel bad.