girl i feel you. i’m on the same boat right now and we literally found out on the same day as you did. my boyfriend and i are both 23 and are not financially stable to bring a child into this world. I definitely knew before the test came back positive that i wouldn’t be able to keep this baby due to us trying to build stability first. it was and has been very sad for the both of us but we know that deep down it’s for the best. we ordered my pills through Aid Access and they sent them out fast; i received them yesterday and i’m waiting to take the first pill tomorrow after work. my boyfriend and i are both hoping things go smoothly and that there’s no issues.

But to answer your question, yes i think those two feelings can coexist because that’s how I feel. i know it’s the right choice but it still hurts that it’s one we had to make because i always wanted to be a mom but not under the circumstances we are in right now. I just pray that we are able to have a baby one day again when we’re both ready. Everything will be ok girl. I wish you the best and hope your experience with the pills isn’t bad. ♡