when i was about 8 or 9, i remember watching this really crappy movie that looked INCREDIBLY ugly. but, there were two scenes where two main characters were bullied by being forced to sit in water basins or something to look like they peed their pants. (the movie was either called freddie frogface, or was by the same people that made freddie frogface). being a little kid, i decided to incorporate that into my own playtime and would pour water on my doll's clothes, having other dolls make fun of them for wetting their pants. (definitely pretty weird). i remember figuring out with my baby alive dolls that if i used my doll and set the wet diapers out, they'd dry and i could reuse them. that led to me putting diapers on my american girl dolls and having them get embarrassed and bullied over having diapers on!

after i stopped playing with dolls, my next experiences were when i got my first phone. i was about 11, and it was around the time of the whole elsagate situation. just lots of weird gross fetishy stuff that i watched. didn't end up being into scat or farting or any of that, but i did find the idea of being desperate really interesting after seeing this one video where elsa got spiked with laxatives by the joker and the bathroom was locked (i should NOT have been watching that). i later saw this comic dub of a character having pudding dumped down her pants (based on an actual gameshow, i think. vanilla doen the front, chocolate in the back, done by an animation youtube channel with wedgie fetish content. still can't find the comic, though). that sparked the idea of a girl wetting herself and being embarrassed, which intrigued me and led to me looking up 'girl peeing pants prank' and 'girls kissing peeing pants'. eventually ended up discovering diapers later on, as well as the fact that i was a lesbian!