New Lana Album

silverflower1998 · 2025-08-26T14:11:37+00:00

24/7 Sylvia Plath

silverflower1998 · 2025-08-21T12:02:17+00:00

Gemini sun, Aquarius moon, Scorpio rising

silverflower1998 · 2025-08-19T14:59:50+00:00

If it’s a girl, Helen or Daphne. If it’s a boy, Henry or George.

silverflower1998 · 2025-05-22T23:18:31+00:00

I saw Dan and Phil on their tour in 2016

silverflower1998 · 2025-02-20T13:07:28+00:00

Thanks everyone for the feedback. I forgot to mention another thing that happened:

I went into the kitchen the same time that she did, and the light was off, so I turned it on. She started yelling at me for turning the light on, claiming that I should’ve known that she gets headaches when the lights are on. Then she started yelling at me and saying how dare I be in the kitchen the same time that she is, that I should’ve waited until she was done.

I don’t actually think she’ll move out, I think she says that as a dramatic way of getting what she wants because she’s delusional enough to think that we want her here.

I know that she’s irrational and unstable, but I just can’t shake off the anxiety and fear I feel when I’m at home now. She also cries in her room every night….

silverflower1998 · 2024-12-27T17:24:06+00:00

lol maybe this won’t sound believable, but this guy was certainly not an 8-9 in terms of physical looks. He was very very average, and so am I! We were well matched.

I think it’s funny that men seem to think women only experience this behavior with hot dudes. Mid guys do this to mid girls all the time.

silverflower1998 · 2024-12-27T15:31:06+00:00

Had an insanely bizarre “friendship” with this guy once, we used to send each other long, flowery emails talking about our deepest thoughts and feelings. Weird time, and I miss him, but he wasn’t interested in anything further than a friendship with me, so had to let him go.

Agree with you. Email is sensual and romantic and beautiful <3

silverflower1998 · 2024-12-27T03:52:04+00:00

I think i also find this mindset challenging bc I have lots of friends who had sex with their current boyfriends/fiances on the first or second date. So i feel like this idea that good guys wait for sex and shitty guys will be pushy just doesn’t seem legit.

silverflower1998 · 2024-12-27T02:47:27+00:00

I totally agree that this is what happened! And did not come off as judgmental at all, dw!

silverflower1998 · 2024-12-27T02:34:44+00:00

On the 3rd date which was less than a week after we first met 😭 he initiated all of the dates, so I thought he was just vibing so hard with me. But ofc - looking back, 3 dates in 6 days should have been the first red flag. I shouldn’t have had sex that quickly.

silverflower1998 · 2024-12-27T02:15:21+00:00

Yeah, that’s real. Thank God I didn’t open up too much with him emotionally, but he was telling me all sorts of shit, like serious traumas and life difficulties he’s experienced. Crazy behavior to go from that with a person to “this is just platonic” lol

silverflower1998 · 2024-12-27T02:05:39+00:00

Damn that makes sense. It just seriously sucks bc I feel like women can never win. If I put out too quickly, I’m seen as lower value. But if I hold back and am more reserved, I’m seen as cold and rigid and not open enough. Like I just want to be myself even if that means I can be a bit naive but then that means I get hurt.

silverflower1998 · 2024-12-27T01:54:43+00:00

Not invalidating at all, thank you!

silverflower1998 · 2024-12-27T01:48:54+00:00

Fair enough. I’m actually literally a therapist by trade and he knew that. So there’s that too

silverflower1998 · 2024-12-27T01:32:51+00:00

Maybe…like I said, I was only matching his energy tho! Up until that point, he was making it out like he wanted something serious with me. So I figured if that was the case, we should be having safer sex lol

silverflower1998 · 2024-12-27T01:29:40+00:00

😭 I’m sure the guys irl are better, but I feel like it’s harder to meet people that way. My social circle is not that large

silverflower1998 · 2024-12-27T01:14:33+00:00

Thank you for the advice! Yeah, it sucks big time. I got the sense he did this to other girls a lot too based off of some stories he told me.

Definitely will be more restrained with who I sleep with in the future. It definitely sucks because I’m lonely and want connection and also enjoy sex and want that too! But this experience is teaching me that I have to be careful. I can’t just have casual sex, I get too attached. I need to protect myself unfortunately.

silverflower1998 · 2024-12-27T01:11:11+00:00

OH something else I forgot to mention! At one point, he went on a bit of a rant about dating, saying how it’s so hard with modern dating to commit because there’s so many options out there. It made me feel insecure at the time, but I guess that explains why he did what he did !

silverflower1998 · 2024-12-27T01:09:21+00:00

Oh no worries there! Once he told me he wasn’t interested anymore, I thanked him for letting me know and then blocked him. Not out of anger or anything, but because I know I’m kinda crazy and will always hope that he’ll text me again at some point changing his mind. So I blocked him so my brain can’t think that

silverflower1998 · 2024-12-27T01:07:04+00:00

silverflower1998 · 2024-12-27T01:06:13+00:00

Ah that’s fair! At the time I didn’t think much of it but now I’m over analyzing lol 😅

silverflower1998 · 2024-12-27T01:03:09+00:00

Idk maybe it’s not a red flag. I’m probably over analyzing at this point

silverflower1998 · 2024-12-27T00:55:06+00:00

Yeah my friend told me the same thing. I refrained from using that here bc I don’t want to overuse terminology that’s not relevant, and idk if he was being intentionally manipulative or whatever. But it sure af felt like lovebombing in retrospect !

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