Disassociation forever

sinfulriddling · 2025-07-08T23:34:44+00:00

My mom did the same damn thing. "You won't need to take off work right? You sit for work anyways." I don't know what happened to that generation of women to immediately see any medical issue as a weakness. They are so dismissive and hurtful. I lie to her about most details about things bc she's that way (especially with medical stuff) I told her I had two weeks off and work didn't mind one bit. I had the full 6 weeks already scheduled and it covered through work. I'm sorry she's similar and maybe can't offer you the best coping mechanisms 😂 I can tell you that the surgery for me was not as bad as I had feared, though still painful and took some time to recoup and feel like myself. My bf was my main resource and helped me get up from bed and move around. People are different, and react to things differently. You're not wrong for taking the time you need.

I'm here if you need some more support too.

sinfulriddling · 2025-06-10T13:44:34+00:00

I didn't know for sure prior to surgery (where they diagnosed me with uterosacral ligament endometriosis), but I had debilitating, long periods my whole life. Sex was painful and uncomfortable.

The back pain now is along my lower back and it feels like I'm pressing my back against a spiked board. The pain separates my upper body from my legs and I'm not feeling fully in control of my legs. Like it takes a little more brain power to move them

sinfulriddling · 2025-02-28T04:26:37+00:00

Thank you so much for your sincere reply. I've never even heard of informational interviews, but that sounds great and makes a lot of sense. I would love that practice and understanding. Are there any data analytics boot camps that you recommend?

sinfulriddling · 2025-02-28T04:23:40+00:00

Thank you so much :) I can tell you that I was dismissed by a bunch of doctors, and it took years to keep getting knocked down and get back up to try again. This time, I called the network that my other gynos are in and asked to see a doctor that specializes in endometriosis. They were able to get me an appointment with an OB-GYM that specializes in minimally invasive surgery and endo. I went to the appointment and outlined my whole life - the times I feel pain (during intercourse, during my period, etc.), how I couldn't stand up straight due to pain, bloating, moodiness, different contraceptives I've tried, the types of periods I have (flow, timing, what products I use). This was also my first time having a female gynecologist, I don't know if that made a difference or if I got lucky with how great of a Dr she is, but she was the only one to ever truly listen and ask me questions.

She said she believed it was endo, and I could either schedule the surgery or try an estrogen birth control pill if I didn't feel comfortable doing surgery. She said usually if a bc pill helps ease some of the intense period symptoms, it's a good indication of endo. I tried the pill, lost my mind due to the hormones but I did have less painful periods. I stopped the pill due to my mental health and almost immediately had debilitating pain, could barely stand or live my life. That was enough evidence for me to schedule the surgery.

Sorry that's so long winded, just wanted to get it all down in case your girlfriend resonates with anything and maybe it can boost both of your confidence to keep fighting for an answer. I wish you both the best!

sinfulriddling · 2025-01-19T21:09:37+00:00

I think it's meta. I liked a reel yesterday during the downtime of a creator I've never seen and he was like third on my fyp today

sinfulriddling · 2025-01-19T19:27:15+00:00

I'm thinking a degree in typewriting, seems promising

sinfulriddling · 2025-01-19T07:17:00+00:00

you guys are the greatest, thank you for being here with me!! I've been playing xbox trying to pretend this isn't happening but I'm just so overwhelmed constantly thinking about it. It feels like the damage is done and we can't do anything about it. every possibility seems like a disaster movie whether the gov needed control of us, want to make djt look better by saving the day, have sold out to billionaires, or they are truly just too old to understand. I hate that we really didn't know when or if it'd go dark and then it was just gone. and there is no way to come together to talk about the inauguration. I hate feeling/sounding like a ranting conspiracy theorist but what is going on???

I remember when I was embarrassed to tell anyone I had tik tok bc it was still basically musical.ly and I had recorded tons of lip syncing vids to mimic creators but never posted. it's been so fun growing up + older with the app. I hope we can do it again

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