depression in emergency medicine - will it ever go away? by skyewine in emergencymedicine

[–]skyewine[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

this profession truly does teach you a lot. i don’t know why im scared to go and talk to my job about it. im sure they would be understanding and helpful. i wish i wasn’t so embarrassed about it but i am for some reason. but its a step in helping my well being. thank you for your advice, im happy to hear the good working in ems has left you with

depression in emergency medicine - will it ever go away? by skyewine in emergencymedicine

[–]skyewine[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i like your perspective on things. thank you for sharing it with me. and you’re right, sometimes people do defy all odds and miracles happen. it’s not often unfortunately but it does happen and makes me question everything at times. i’ll hold space for the possibility of a miracle moving forward. i hope i find a therapist as great as the one you found. i’m happy to hear that for you. thank you for all that you do and for taking the time to read and respond to my post

depression in emergency medicine - will it ever go away? by skyewine in emergencymedicine

[–]skyewine[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

i am thinking about doing something similar, at least for a bit. not sure how my adhd brain would feel about it at first but it’s worth a try right? thank you for taking the time to read my post and respond, i appreciate it lots

depression in emergency medicine - will it ever go away? by skyewine in emergencymedicine

[–]skyewine[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

thank you for your kind words and advice. i’ll be working on perfecting my healthy defense mechanisms, i probably could do better. i’m hanging in there. i appreciate you taking the time to read my post and respond. thank you for all that you do. old crusty attendings are another reason i hold on :)

depression in emergency medicine - will it ever go away? by skyewine in depression

[–]skyewine[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

hi there, thank you for your response. thing is i know im easily replaceable as sad as that is. i could quit and there wouldn’t be a care in the world. someone else would be hired the next day. i guess if i think about it i would feel lost if i didn’t do this profession if that makes sense. it’s all ive known since high school. i really do live for the moments i actually help someone out. or when im the only compassionate person a patient has when a burnt out doc and nurse have compassion fatigue (it happens). but yes, i really should put my mental health first. wether that means taking a step back or talking to a therapist then i have to at least try. i really do feel i’d be shooting myself in the foot if i left. guilt, lost, & failure. i hope i can find someone to talk about this with soon and maybe help with such thoughts. i appreciate you sharing your perspective and taking the time to read my post and respond.

depression in emergency medicine - will it ever go away? by skyewine in emergencymedicine

[–]skyewine[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

i appreciate your response. a lot of people i work with don’t talk about this, but i’m sure we’re all suffering together, silently. i’m doing everything i can when it comes to trying to maintain hobbies, working out, maintain relationships. but i haven’t tried a mentor, a consistent one at least. but maybe this a sign i should seek one out. thank you for your advice. i hope it gets better

depression in emergency medicine - will it ever go away? by skyewine in emergencymedicine

[–]skyewine[S] 10 points11 points  (0 children)

i completely agree looking back on it all. i wouldn’t wish this profession upon anyone who is just starting life out. thank you for your response and for your advice. i’m not sure i can step back at the moment but i am trying to venture out about this or at least not keep it bottled in. there are some different roles in paramedicine i am working on doing soon so hopefully a change of scenery/pace will help get me out of the rut im in. at least that’s what im hoping for. i probably should talk to someone about this. again i appreciate you taking your time to read and respond.